I speak out my mind
But don't term me
"outspoken"

I thought you as my sun
Shining only for me
I thought you as my moon
Gleaming only for me
I thought you as my star
Twinkling only for me
I thought you as my sky
Guarding high above, only me

But..it proved wrong...

Like the sun you shine
Like the moon you gleam
Like the stars you twinkle
Like the sky you guard
Not just me alone...
but many more along!!

Where the hell am I to go now??

Small is always beautiful
Things or deeds...
little care for flora  around
Of dullness strife environment
Fosters their eagerness
To grow in abundance
Making our Earth
A glorious green planet !!

An over long  hustle and bustle
Tends Mind to yearn a hush
As it seeks a way - A path to maturity
Where wisdom holds sway
For a journey of inward flow
Searching purpose of soul
And cognizing  design  of life…!!

Life’s ebbs and flows guides me  to wake
As consciousness dawns within
Like radiant sun, edging out
the ignorance prevailing in and out
embracing the truth
And the essence of life !!
  
Vowing  to forsake , toxic talks and choice
I embrace silent moments
With stillness in thoughts
Letting spirit rise higher and higher
To become a better person,  as I aspire
with grace, In this sacred space of life!!

Met on a rainy day
Together we stood
With tiny parasol over head
Shielding each other
From the downpour
Of the magnificent monsoon rain!!

You held me tight
To your shoulder on right
I felt the warmth of your love

And in that .....

I lost myself
forever!!!

Seem born yesterday...
With innocent charming adorable look
Blithely joyous in their own world
Today, Grown up to face challenges of life and world…

Pillars to hold, children are to their parents and world
Doubtlessly the future, for the future world.
Have built their base determined, with strong, high and great marks
To stand tall with vision on their mission accompanied by a bright sparkle...
To themselves  and for whom they are descendants !!

Congratulations....to each of the little souls !!!
Prayers ,wishes on their way for  achievements many more...
In all their endeavors henceforth..
With infallible firm walk seeking success glory and fame
In realisation of dreams and goals
Making parents smile with pride
A return gratitude for their strive
In making a better person of their child...

Best wishes to the young adults in their journey to future ....!!!

An ordinary soul
Neither was  nor I'm
With my own  imperfections
Mine alone perfections...
Emotions sometimes freeze me
And at times anger fumes  too
No bodies I love
But the souls in them I  care
Crying and laughing not unknown to me
Though keeping a smile ever seem toughest..
As gentle a mind of flowery petals
Ocassionally becoming a rocky brick...
I'm ...what my mind...is
In  and out  no different...!!
Ordinary....Extra ..... ordinary!!

We sat intact ,alone on the corners of benched sand dunes
Far away from tantrums of the beach and dwellers
Chatted long of the past present and future..
With no voice overheard, any eyes unnoticed
Perched together with hand in hand
Heart on heart facing head to head
Viewed ocean's happy and furious tides
Thrilled people with rhythms of waves
But silently in a world our own
Cherished our intimacy....
Embraced our lively lovely togetherness
Me and my loneliness !!

Confused mind
Of  infused thoughts
Leaving pain undefeatable!!

In
Mind or body...??

Too confused!!

Tiny trots with little hearts
With many a dreams
But with fear for life  
Begging before Almighty !!

Sounds of strikes
From air to heart
With their  world around
falling  apart in pain !!

Thousands rendered homeless
And many others  lifeless
Why the world is in a silence ??
Leaving them helpless !!..

Lord!! With folded hands I pray
May humanity be protected
From all tormenting threats
And
For peace and happiness to prevail!!

Behind the woods
Beside the shrubs ..
Waiting for the rain drops
To dance nonstop
feathering out its beauty
Making us call it naughty.

But ...for the peacocks
It's a way to attract their mates
And pair it as soul mate !!

My little piece of mind
Needs a little peace of mind..
None can give my little  piece of mind
A little peace of mind
Unless I make peace with my mind
Least... with a  little piece of  mind !!

Between  prayers and tears
Is heard the whispers
uttered in tune so low ..
by melancholic mind...
Understood by none
than the resident there.....

No coloured words
No covered feelings
No surreal perfections
Yet...with all imperfections
It's so real.....
And that's me
And my heart  !!

In a corner of my heart
There occurs a fight
Is it right?
Or should I do it right?
Is it wrong?
And should I refrain from
Being wrong?
Am I being fooled
Or am I fooling myself?
Sometimes it’s a joy
But happiness ends with tears
And I be able to bear
That remains as my fear
Little fights and kidding anger
Makes me a girl, I cherish
But AM I right
Or aM I wrong?
You tell me…

If in your shoes , I stand
What is right to you
Might be right to me too...

Distance  apart...
if against you I stand
What is right to you
Is not  to me all right ...

What be my right
What out to be left
No one knows
Unless in my shoes
You stand !!

Never judge others..
From where you stand !!

Feathers of colours
Green, red and white
Like a bundle of flowers
I hold him in my hands
And he always feels cozy ...

At times  sits on my  head
And dances to the music
Heard...
Crooning his way all along
Expressing.....he is happy!!

When my face is dull
Changes his face to look sad
Pecking me with his tiny beaks
Makes me feel....he is there !!

It's a beauty to see him fly
But rarely is it's happening
He walks with his tiny legs
Preening at every step....

Beauty is his identity
While his claws sets his class
He is my feathery friend
My Rio......!!!

In the sunset of unspoken dreams
Where it’s remains once danced in glitter
Drenched in fire , now seems  resigned,
Lies in ashes of memories, intertwined.
And the flickers that once warmed the soul,
Rests in the unattended corners,
Of the heart, silent and deep.
With hopes for a new beginning
From every finish, like a rise of phoenix
From the unattended corners of heart!!

I laugh
Laugh out loud
Painting a cheerful smile..
Springing two drops of tears
Fall from my eyes
Glittering and dazzling
Like smoothed diamond stones
But none will know
It's not the happy diamonds
But sad rough edged indian rock salt
Out ....having my heart torn apart!!

Stars shine in her eyes
Yearning to live a life
Firm in mind to fall in place
either illusional or real..
Sans  letting life to leave
No less than a reconquer
Of the lost glee  .
She  dreamt..
Of umpteen pictures with songs
Unique  song of silence  said it all....
Backing her dreams i stood singing  my own song of silence...!!

Whole of me is devoted to you
much like a doll
dancing to your moves...
Cheerfully smiling through
Though bleeding deep within....
In the wait for a scent of you
least from far....
For me to stay alive !!

I lay on the bed
Literally dread
Accompanied by the darkness of night
With no ray of light.

 Thoughts scurrying over my mind
With tears my eyes sensed blind
Past memories hit me a thunder
For coming out of it is wonder.

Reminisce of the Wonderful days
Together with dreadful days
Disconcerted the offended mind
Leading  tears ..tears behind
Dancing to the velocity of thoughts in mind till ....Sleep abides!!

Laziness draped stale days
The sun hesitates to show off
Preferring to stay indoors
Cold waves flag off the day
In the visible darkness
With wind taking over the reign
In the undeniable day light ..
And then, there’s a feel
of reversed season-
The original toppled
Sickness on the alert
With fever, be it viral or dengue
Cough, cold and shiver
claiming their strong hold
on the fittest of the humans, even
Beware, take care, stay safe
And endure the season's test!!

Why is it that you—
Seconds, minutes, hours—
Rush ahead so fast
When I’m at work passionately?
Or when my love is near?

And why do you stretch
To miles and miles apart
Drifting like a shadow
When he is far from me
And as I sit bored?

Are you playing tricks?
Toying with my heart
And my passion?
Or are you simply teasing
Both of us apart?

You and me are one
And is no fun
Though known to none
Under the sun. !!

The seeds I sow
Are growing every day
Like my love for you!!

I love myself
You call me selfish ?
No bother...
It's self love...
If I don't love me...
Who else will??
Will you???

Trusted your words once
Trusted the same again
And again. . .. in vain
with no gain...
But no ....
Not any more again
To model myself
a self proclaimed fool!!

Rain drenched trees
In  green groove
Stood boastfully holding
drops of happiness!!

A walk up for handshake
With a smile broad of care
To  Gleefully residing trees...
Drenched me with showers
Of heavenly little drops of water
They held in them to offer!!

Lesson taught with warmth
In chilling rain...
From nature rain and trees
Happiness be shared
With ones you are cared!!!

Like a soul
Runs around without foul
Covering even tiny holes
To keep family as whole
Taking every strain
Even by tilting her brain
Spreading happy fragrance
Of a dutiful soul....
Yet she is seen as a woman
Mere weak woman !!

In the dark before dawn,
they sparkle like diamonds
And smile  as budding stars
along the greens of my path
filling fragrance
all through my way...
And blooming
As radiant lovely flowers
On the fall of first ray
Of morning  sun....!!

-kavitha prabhakaran

Shimmering sharp sword
Slit my throat deep
Aiding bleed profusely…
While your words dazzled  bright
Viciously laughing at the fallen me…

Silence blossomed in me
In the darkest colours of my nature
Of Un withering petals adamant enough
To withstand the hurricane of  thoughts
And remain guileless in the chilling memories
Undrenched in the profound rain  of tears
And linger plumped up in the scorching heat of  piercing worries
My silence. ......eternal !!

Fought with you for a reason so trifle
I cried meekly, then loudly
Burst out with tiny whispers
Led it out hysterically
Flung out not just alone utensils
But all that came handy...

You remained a silent spectator
To all my spectacle…
Thus again provoking me for no reason
But you remained still silent to the core...
Might, you felt come what may ready to bear….

Tired of all the drama...
Dispersed all feelings of melodrama
Took to set right all things flown
Eliminated the clouds over grown …
Set Surrounding and emotions all clear...

With a realization crystal clear….
Silence sometimes is the best solution
To many a problems.....

Umpteen reasons behind the silence
Yet gets silenced time and again..
crossing fountains of fudges
borne enough in abundance...
As mind fancies your image..
With accompanying twists of dance
to tunes of beats the breeze delivers
from the  far end of world...
Proving again.....egolessness
in the care for the soul it adores !!

-kavitha prabhakaran

Infinite emotions
Innumerable feelings
Inexpressible in words
Interestingly surfaces as silence
Interacting to thousand minds
In ten thousand words !!

A fly so...
Silly on it's own
With no dreams
And nil  hopes
Flew around
Careless.....
Until caught in
web spun around
By your smile....!!

Violent waterfalls in the
wilderness of vast greenery
Showered on her the
chillness of heavenly drops..
In the taste of  her favourite strawberry....
With alluring scent of red roses..
Sending  vibes  of happiness..
Across her spines..
driving her into her own world..
of dreams and fantasies.....
And the waterfalls continued
It's magical silvery smile!!

Burdens I carry
As thoughts , worries
and sadness..
All belong to me, solely
With least desire to share it
With anyone....
either near or dear!!
Lessons they are
That make me realise
Colors true of all
Understand realities
And priorities...
And where I stand
In one's view !!
Hope gives colours
To dreams ...
Yet  often feel broken . .
Though I gather
Myself...
to be me again!!
The simple me!!

Sketches that look beautiful
And some that are painful
But few,  more colourful
And some meaning full
Stay stored in patterns
For view as in museum
But only... For self view!!

Pain inducing sketches
That had torn my heart
Would find their place in thrash
Replaced with blankness...
How I wish.....if i could  redraw!!

Then, why should I pile up in mind
The unpleasant and undesired
Sketches and frames ????
Shouldn't I erase it all
And let my mind free ???
Yes......here i do it !!!

Inborn talents suppressed deep
Under the layers of cornerstone
With feelings of repression
Flowing like river of red all through
Fighting wars within self
And conceding defeat everyday
As barter for harmony to surround !!
Yet ..
At time that's so perfect...
The Mighty's hand extends
To nurture concealed skills
letting the soul sing a song of joy
And float on the flow of life
To destination satisfaction!!

Like the Innumerable  stars  twinkling  on  the sky
Infinite emotions keep glittering  in my heart...
Is my heart like a sky.....
Or Sky is like my heart ??

U never let me sleep even light
By  being in my thoughts all night

I never let  that you know
For u never have time for me to know!!

Smiles and laughter that you gave me
Has filled my wallet in full
Still, weighing feathery
Pocketed in the armoires of soul
Ready for every move !!

In my lone walks under all weathers
Hidden deep under the tides of heart
Protected from sun and moon lit world
Bundled in possessiveness I shield my wallet !!

Smiles I preserve has erased my pain
Giving me zeal to live , self assured !!
But you, who gifted me this treasure
Do you even remember me ??

Some days are like that
Nothing happens right
However you may try
Even with a cry...!!

Sun refuses to wake
And the sky is coloured cloudy
Gentle breeze  dance and play
Caressing cheeks and hair as
Chillness comes along
Southwest direction in row…
And the earth seems ready
To quench thirst  
with the first droplet of
Heaven’s dew ……
As  the monsoon arrives
In style !!

Under the shade of greens
Gentle breeze
Along the trees
Turns pages of book
That has my mind on it.. !!
By my side, the sparrows
Walk on wall much alike jump
And then fly so lively
Leaving in me a thought...
And a  wish. ...
If I could fly.....!!

When I speak
You hear my mind's voice
When I write
You see my mind's voice
Both reflect what's in my mind
No diverse in and out !!..

While water boiled in the sauce pan
I viewed through the window panes
At the  rains falling in arrogance
And  the Earth bearing it in silence ...!!

Green trees around enjoyed the shower..
As tiny birds onto nests, themselves retired !!
Taste buds yearned for a hot cup of tea
With spices added in plenty....!!

The noisy furious  wind blew ..
Spicing up the monsoon woes !!