It's fine
I mean it when I say,
That everything's fine
Even if I'm slowly losing my mind
I'm fine
You can believe me or not
But I'd like to say one more time
That I'm fine

It's right
Nothing better than this
Optimistic lunacy
In the face of cold misery
Dead friends
While they drink themselves to life
Smiles ten miles wide
But I know that it's alright

Break backs
Trying make them take me back
Send love but it's never enough
I guess I'm alright with that
Send notes
Written in calligraphy
All the words read perfectly
Crying out to come back to me

I'm fine
Please believe me when I lie
Straight to your worried eye
That I will be just fine
Take time
I smile when I hear the words
Please, say that you're alright
Even when I don't know what it's like

Your body's in the cold
But your heart's in L.A.
You say you love me
That doesn't mean you'll stay
You hate the weather
And you hate me too
When we're together
There's only one thing to do

I think I like your distaste
With the things I say
When you roll your eyes
And walk away
I don't like myself
So why should you?
As long as you let me
Do what I have to do

You don't love much more
Than your pretty self
Except for when you're around
Anyone else
I can't stand you much
But that's okay
When you feel my touch
Get on your knees and pray

Make love
Make art
They're one in the same if they come from the heart

Do you recall the time the road blocked us from the stream?
We lost our day to flashing lights and machinery screams
The drive home was filled with quiet melodies
Stuck in my head like screaming memories

Do you remember a cold December when I came back home?
I called you once, you called me twice and yet we were alone
I saw you flying past me on the road we always drove
Your eyes were closed singing loudly to the Broken Bones

We slammed into the door and tried to catch our breath
But the time had passed and we were both upset
We missed our chance to see what really could've been
Like a wanderer who passes by who could be a friend

Our timing's off, we never seem to make there on time
Like when you said "hello" and tried to steal my mind
It just wasn't right, I don't know why, it should be the one
But now, once again, we are both alone

I fell apart, but I'm still alive
I've got promises in my eyes
I guess they didn't make it to you
But I've got prospects too
It doesn't matter what you say
When you blow your own way
I can still hear your song for miles
But now I sing along and smile

There's a deed to be dealt
But I'm the last guy you felt
And if it still feels sad
Then the man must be bad
He doesn't know where to push
He doesn't know when's too much
And if my face comes to your mind
You're already out of time

Did you think about you said?
How often does it come to your head?
For awhile, I couldn't get it out
But I forgot what you were talking about
I guess time can heal the good
As the bad still wish they would
I'll be fine and you'll be dead
Or just the same with him in bed

Life is one long preparation for death

We've said all we can
But when will it end?
We talked until the sun came up and now I'm losing it, my friend
You know I like your words
But they've been heard
Can we please shut up and just be with the birds?

I think the moon got bored
You see those nails in the door?
I can hear them on the side of my mind, scratched off on chalkboard
There's a time and place
For time to waste
But we've wasted enough I need a different kind of taste

Did you feel it too?
There's something better we can do
It doesn't matter to me, can we finally just blow this tune?
I know tomorrow will come
But before we're done
I'd like to thank your mouth for the race its run

There's a star I see
Does it notice me?
I can barely breathe
Under the weight of your silence

Can the wind remember
The words I send her?
If I could just befriend her
again, through all the distance

Time is like an ocean
It always stays in motion
And like a quiet notion
I slip into the undertow of love

Come from life within me
Break the spell, but gently
Why so violently
Do you cast down hell from above?

There's a star I see
Does it notice me?
I can barely breath
When it shines out of control

Bathed in violet moonlight
Wrapped in music tonight
With no end in sight
I feel it deep down in my soul

Chivalry rests under a lonely soul
No one seems to get where he goes
He doesn't sleep as he dreams
About beauty queens

He's a fire under ice
In search of paradise
When he finds it in the mist
He will always remember this

Nothing breathes here in the cold
He must die before he grows old
He can pull out your chair
And still pull your hair

His boasting comes from you
As he is proud of what you do
And when you smile and sway
It takes his breath away

I think of all the times you said you push away
But I don't mind
I'm staying here no matter what you say

I could bring you places you've never been before
You'll be flying high
I'll give you everything you've always waited for

I know I'm alive
Perhaps in another life
I might get it right

You like to say that time is on our side
But you must realize
I'm too impatient to watch it all go by

You say the house can burn if we light a match
Though that may be true
You can't sit there freezing just because you're afraid to get attached

Well I'm basically ******
I've lived before this and I'll live long after it
But I'm not sure how great that will be
I did what I had to do
I was honest
I may have been cowardly
But the truth came out in the end
Now, as I sit in the basement
In the dark
Without hope
Without clothes
I wonder if I should've done what I did?
Who did I help?
More importantly, who did I hurt?
Besides myself, of course
There is only one thing worse than being alone instead of with the wrong person
And that is losing the right person

She was bled into riches
That can't be seen
And when she digs her ditches
She doesn't know she's mean

She's casually honest
And she's your friend
Like a singer's sonnet
She flows like wind

She can't break the spirit
Of an honest man
But she can steer it
The best she can

She knows nothing's better
Than the truth of love
And when she reads the letter
I hope that's  enough

I'd like to meet the man who is never afraid
Listen to him tell the life he has made
How he became the man he proclaims
And how he has lied to stay that way

I have never known an unafraid man
Or one without scars on his hands
I have never known one to be true
For I am just as afraid as you

You only see the signs when you're looking for them

This might escalate too much for you
But I promise to wait for you
I think we both know what's on my mind
The words are there, they're just hard to find
Don't give up on me
And I won't give up on you

I'm taking my time, hold on tight
I hope you don't mind if it takes all night
There's something that I can't get through
And it's the thought of losing you

I'm sorry that I took so long
Even if I said it wrong
There's no hurry, you don't have to answer yet
But I will worry if your mind forgets

This might take us all our lives
But I will try to get it right
For what it should and should never be
I'll promise you if you'll promise me
Don't give up on me
And I won't give up on you

Stepping in the middle of a hurricane fire waiting for the winter to blow
Somebody was listening but you were on your way to Mexico
Down there, they won't care if you want to run around town
The women don't love you but the one you do sleeps in a Minnesota town

Can you see the horizon falling like a diamond in the middle of the violet sky?
You thought you were clear until a tear came to your eye
Everything was moving along and you had your pride in your hand
Now you've got a decision, do you run or fight like a man?

Somewhere in the city where everything was pretty, you found the windowpane
You saw her silhouette burning like a jet through the campfire rain
You shouted out and saw her open up the window to her moonlit room
As a man grabbed her waist, froze you in place, now you've gotta move on too

I think it about now
It doesn't matter if I'm just wondering
If I'm feeling down
They've heard it all before
I'm coming out again
And the sky's been thundering
If I can feel the rain
I don't want it anymore

So what if I am?
So what if she's so beautiful
She'll never really be
As beautiful as you
Do you really think,
That anyone's as beautiful,
When I tell you my head,
Doesn't believe that it's true?

I'm not a smart man
Which is good
Because love is stupid

Tomorrow will be the same
Except that I'll either be alone
Or I'll have you

If it's easy, let it go
Don't let it come without a fight
I haven't seen this much blood
Since last Christmas night
I was buried in a haze
And it's taken way too long
I'm doing better these days
I've got good friends that came along

There's something I gotta say
Before I walk back home
It isn't easy to walk away
So don't say I have to go
I've got a little in the tank
I can drive around this town
I've got too many to thank
For keeping me around

Have you seen a simple suicide?
There's no ease to this one too
I'm simply ******* terrified
I hope I'm alive to see it through
I've been trying to get the hang of it
Trying to gain some control
I've been wondering what to do with it
But it's impossible to know

Is there a way to recall
Every little thing you said?
If I can point to it all
I'd say it all stuck in my head
If I go to bed tomorrow
With a smile on my face
Then I won't have to borrow
One from another place

Get ****** sappy kings
Crying tears over everything
Do we think it makes us good?
As if any queen would,
Lick her lips and shake her hips
To climb up the sappy wood

Cry somewhere I can't hear
I would care but it takes years
For you to stop and for something bad
To even make me feel sad
Split your heart and do it smart
Because there's no walking away from that

I've been buried, as we all have
But that doesn't change the fact
That we face it with zest and strength
While you sit and cry at length
Unless your eyes see loved ones die
Keep that drama queen away from me

I'm moving on again
The storm is coming through
I haven't been home in awhile
But there isn't much to do
The temple drags along a razor's edge
Like the beauty that I've found
But before I can enter in
I've got a soul to pin down

There's a warrior inside
And I can see it from a mile
It's probably just lost
Behind a painful little smile
If I ever get too close
Sometimes it washes over me
And the end of the day
It's all I want to see

In forces and in friends
There's a sorrow in youth
But where my words fall apart
My presence screams the truth
If all has broken down again
And nothing turns out right
Sometimes just a friendly face
Can get us through the night

Wear the face you want to
And wear it like a star
Because I don't care much for paint
It's the person that you are
Up high in the swirling mind
That dances through the night
I've fallen for the thoughts inside
May I make them mine?

If this is how I feel
Then it must be real
I can't explain how my mind runs
If I'm still alive
When you say goodnight
Then my life has just begun

I'm climbing across the room
Bracing the monsoon
That's gonna take me down
And if I'm still alive
When you say goodnight
Then I hope you stay around

I'm perfect. No I'm not
I'm happy with that
I think it's better to change yourself
You'll never be the same
You can even change your name
But I can always be myself
Around you

One day, I'll tell you what goes on in my head
The things I think to myself
Are different from things that I've said
It doesn't matter to me if you run away
I'd be sad, sure, but I know that eventually I'd be okay

We're not perfect, in fact we're far away from that
I still remember that Christmas Day
I remember it and laugh
I think about you every time I blink my eyes
Even if you tell me how you feel, it would come as a surprise

As the dance resumed
And your button's down
In the cloud of perfume
She can be found
I know you're impressed
By the way she sways
Give her your best
And maybe someday,

You'll find yourself
Walking through her front door
Just like myself
And many like you before
Do you see that photograph,
Hanging by her balcony?
If you look closely
You'll see that it's me

I haven't changed much
Just gotten old
I don't believe I've been alive just yet
As far as I've been told
You've got to shop around
You've to find out what you want
But there's a difference
Between what it is I want
And what it is I need

Give me my disposition at the door
So I know how to act
So I know what to think
How to talk
And what to say
If I can tell you what's on my mind
Will you help me through it or push me away?
I'm alright, I promise
Just look away

I can say I'm sorry
But the truth is that I'm not
When things get dark and starry
You think about what you've got
I've got a lot to love
And a lot left to do
But I've had enough
I just fell out of love with you

When it all got started
I was happy and I was sure
But things fall apart
Things fluctuate and blur
I don't have a reason
And I don't have to explain
I can try to help you
But I don't care about the pain

Have you seen me since?
In a dream or on the street?
And by coincidence
You found someone to meet
I hope it's all good for now
Maybe you'll hate me less and less
And you'll understand somehow
How I avoided a bigger mess

Dear, Madison
I been thinkin' 'bout you some
It's like a calmly lit cigarette
Behind the fire you've become
You've got your innocence
And I've got my own free will
If I take up residence
Will you stay with me still?

Dear, Madison
I can't believe you're on your own
Some men never see the sun
Even if it's all they've ever known
I can't believe it's true
That you sleep alone at night
If I knew what to do
I'd make sure to do it right

Dear, Madison
Does romance scare you off?
Because if they don't know how to care
They don't deserve you that much
I know you've been sorry some
I've been sorry too
It don't hurt me none
I'm just glad that I met you

Love me, girl, all the time
Send me roses when I die
It's no reason to break your heart
But I'm gonna leave you when mine won't start

There's a fire in the sky
That helps me see your eyes
But I won't walk away
If you find the right thing to say

I'm not a man of wealth and taste
But what I have doesn't go to waste
When I get my hands on what I want
I protect everything I've got

Let's speed down the highway
85 under the street lights
Watching the towns grow small behind us
The music murmuring in the background
The cars fading
Shadows dancing across your face
And no matter what's ahead of us
I can't stop looking sideways
As we drive into the night
Making memories in the moonlight
Holding hands under the bridge
Exchanging kisses at the stop lights
Staring at you while you drive
Cause you can't stare back
with both eyes on the road
Laying my head against your arm
Wishing this **** console wasn't here
Wishing the night would last forever
So I could ride along with you

There's a simple life somewhere
Out there in the cold
If it's dead, I don't care
I'm already too old
The window feels like winter
It makes me think of home
My thought's been split to splinters
On this lonely, teenage road

Have you seen my possessions?
I think I left them in Omaha
I've got no obsessions
As we pass through Arkansas
Can you play our song?
Only if you sing it with me
And if you've been driving too long
Give the control back to me

There's a ringing in my ear
It's the voice of an angel speak
Tell me, I want to hear
Your stories awaken me
This wheel's on fire now
Just like our skin and our hearts
And before it's over now
Can you tear me apart?

I've been in here too long
I can't stand the engine noise
I need to get back home
And have a drink with the boys
Can you fill up the tank?
Can you bring me to the end?
Don't take this to the bank
But I want to see you again

In my mind, we stand on the balcony
Drinking whiskey bourbon talking 'bout you and me
In my mind, we move down to a city in Mexico
Get away from the winter because we both can't stand the cold

In my mind, we follow our dreams to Rome
Live like pharaohs and worship each other's bones
In my mind, we make love like lovers do
Becoming each other, there is no me and you

In my mind, the tidal waves start to fall
Breaking down the canyon, breaking down the valley walls
In my mind, the sky begins to break
Every little crack is another small mistake

In my mind, you're lying here in my arms
Falling asleep to your breath and no alarm
In my mind, your secrets are safe with me
Like a little piece of you that I get to keep

In my mind, we meet on the edge of town
You look at me for protection as we drive around
But my mind isn't what the world wants to be
I guess, today, I'll start moving on down the street

I'm in love with my best friend's sister
I have yet to kiss her
And every night, I miss her
Although I've never had her
That doesn't really matter
Because I know that I love her
I don't want another

Call me when you're lost
I'll come and find you
The night doesn't scare me at all
The dark cannot hide you

Do you think about me at night?
Does it even matter?
Our names are just air and light
Lost among the chatter

Call me blind devotion
I don't really mind
Decisions like an ocean
At least I can say they're mine

Does that scare you off?
The things I have to say
If it does make you run
You'd best stay away

I'm tired of taking off my own belt
I'm tired of feeling what I've felt
I'm tired of giving up so easy
I'm tired of no one trying to see me
I'm tired of complaining and whining
I'm tired of the wanting and pining
I'm tired of sleeping all alone
I'm tired of staying at home
I'm tired of listening my thoughts
I'm tired of everything I've got
I'm tired of staring on the mirror
I'm tired of trying to wipe it clear
I'm tired of silent, early mornings
I'm tired of romantically mourning
I'm tired of my ever-drying lips
I'm tired of my calloused fingertips
I'm tired of listening to happy people
I'm tired of being frail and feeble
I'm tired of being alone
I'm tired of being alone

Suppose the night sings songs of sleep
But the words can't ring or reach us.
Does it matter if we hear them wail
When all we do is sink not sail
Mi encantadora, I'm on your trail

There's a purpose here lost in the wind
But before the rain starts and the storm begins
I've got to say to you something I don't know
If I can't hold it in before the winter snow
Mi encantadora, you're the place I go

Think of lights high in the apartment suites
Who might live there and what they eat
Do you think they ever think of us?
Two lovers lost among the frozen dusk
Mi encantadora, slay me if you must

Has your life ever passed you by
And you think back with teary eyes
Of all the people that have come and gone
And how many of them never said so long
Mi encantadora, is it right or wrong?

I can't answer everything you ask
I will do my best, I can't give more than that
If you bleed than you can bleed on me
And I won't sigh when you need me
Mi encantadora, it's your life that feeds me

As if all the things that I've ever done
Meant nothing until we begun
And everything from here on in
Will mark my grave and do me in
Mi encantadora, I hope we die as friends

I'm in the sun by crashing waves
But no one waves to me
I hear them speak most every day
They don't speak to me

I'm lost in a foreign land
Wishing I could be back home
Where even when I'm by myself
I don't feel so alone
I'm going home

I see eyes on their solemn face
But I don't see life
What is this terrifying place?
It's not what I thought it'd be like

I miss my streets filled with snow
I miss the gray skies above
I miss my hands feeling numb with cold
I miss the warmth of love

I'm lost in a foreign land
Wishing I could be back home
Where even when I'm by myself
I don't feel so alone
I'm going home

How do you tell someone you're in love them,
when you know they're not in love with you?

My heart is breaking
The earth is shaking
But I'm gonna be just fine
If you find me cryin'
As long as I ain't dyin'
Put your hand on my shoulder, I'm gonna be just fine

My soul is searching
My mind is working
Looking for someone else
I've been a liar
I've been an honest man
But I'm tired of trying to please myself

I'm still fighting
For an angel sighting
But I keep looking down
My shoes ain't talking
They just do the walking
Towards the woman I need to keep around

I was lying on Summer Set Drive
I was alive
The stars flew past
And I lost my grasp on life
But it felt so right
Let's die tonight

I was speaking to an old, wiser man
He had a gun in his hand
He taught me how to understand
That if I try as hard as I can
I will still die a man

I was broken down somewhere in Tennessee
Lucky me
And if I see the sun
Shining on my gun
This will be my time come

White water dreaming
Behind pale velvet curtains
I sing the same song to you
Sweet summer steaming
As the wind was swirling
Your hair and your tune

Songs from the masters
Of love and laughter
Sung as the record spins 'round
I get lost in the chatter
Of what really matters
It's that I have you around

The types not romantic
Are the types that I meet
Like a lost wanderer in a storm
Before I get frantic
And cry in the street
I've got you to keep me warm

Cool, comfortable breathing
Beside the fire
Silent and perfect and still
I'm barely believing
Of you I will tire
If you want me to, I will

I was moving
Just like everyone around me
I was losing
It was you who really found me
I'm too late
You say you're not available
I will wait
Another day

I believe in
All these things you say are wrong now
I'm not grieving
All the best things take too long now
I'm alright
I'll be better when you're near me
If not tonight
Another day

I was fleeing
The scene of my last lover
I was bleeding
But it was cleaned by another
You're a hero
Sent by years of wishing
I would say no
But I can't say no
Another day

I think I saw you sometime yesterday
You had your hand in the pocket of a man
Saying things that you don't understand
Like you do every single day
Maybe all the good girls got away

And the man's got a smile on his face
I don't think he truly understands
What he's done and what he's gonna face
Did I mention, that you may have your taste
You're still just an old disgrace

A perfect day on a Sunday afternoon
The cafe crowd and a quiet, calm monsoon
Reaches down into a bag colored like the sun
And pulls out a gold encrusted gun
I hope the man had his days of fun

**** the voices on TV that scare us into depression
**** the killers ravaging the innocent and the gentle
**** the institutions placing us into corners
**** the religions trying to sterilize our minds
**** the powerful that feed on greed and power
**** the lazy that leech off the hardworking
**** the women who use men for ***
**** the men who use women for ***
**** the people that don't believe that you are strong
**** the weakness in you that you know you can defeat
**** the false prophets of false beliefs
**** those who do not respect
**** those who do not love
**** the apathetic
**** the lazy
**** the rich
**** the poor
**** the dead
**** the alive
**** the miserable
**** the happy
**** those who say that life is not finite
**** those who say that life is not beautiful
**** everyone
**** yourself
**** death
**** all that does not make you a better person
**** all that does not help bring happiness to others
**** all that does not make you smile
**** all that does not make you weep
**** all that does not make you feel alive

Looking back on everything
Like a distant movie scene
Sitting cross-legged on the windowpane
Last December
There's a fire in the fireplace
The light dancing on your face
As sweet Miles Davis plays
I remember

How have you been?
Since we last began
All those things I couldn't stand
Seem like nothing
I waited in the hospital room
I hope you're better. Then I am too
There's nothing I wouldn't do
In the beginning

Is the summer sun too much?
Is your skin too hot to touch?
Is any of this enough,
For another?
I can look into your eyes
Like I did so many times
But now I see a friend of mine
Not a lover

Sometimes things just fall apart
They can fall back together
Nothing is ever now or never
Or forever
No matter where you are
Or where you'll ever be
If it's without or next to me
I remember

I wanna know
About all the places you've been to
I love to see
The woman you've grown into
It's like a mystical thing
How the past is in your skin
All those years of wisdom
And how you learned to let them in

I've gotta place
And it sings like an angel for you
Don't run away
Before I get the chance to explore you
I've seen seven things
Some say they're wonders
But if I could give them a name
They'd be love all the same

Have you flown
To every corner of this starship?
Together or alone
Either way, you've seen your hardships
They're painted in dreams
And stains on your seams
But your dress is in bloom
And smells of sweet perfume

There's talking to do
And I can learn every little secret
If not for you
I'd be sleeping with no one to dream it
Like silhouettes in starlight
Dancing to the song
That we make with stories
Unearthed all night long

I've sat here for 21 years
Watching all this go by
People say things cliché
With pretension in their eye
I'm tired of hearing, everyday, what life is all about
Reality is getting boring, let's tune in and drop out

Have you heard the one
About the killer and the priest?
One blesses people with less and less
And one is just a thief
In "somewhere else" my mind is broken down
Reality is getting boring yet still its name resounds

There's stories everywhere you go
And all of them the same
Reductive plots and happy endings
Just under another name
I'm quiet as I sit and listen to what they all say
Reality is getting boring, maybe I'll revisit it some other day

You can refresh your mind
Discover what you need to find
"It will be just fine"
We'll see
It seems you're out of line
And you've gotta find the rhyme
It'll come back to you in time
Just like me

There's somewhere else around
In another town
Where I've heard you've been found
Paying dues
It's not like I'm blind
But I can't see the signs
They'll come back to me in time
Just like you

I'm not a crying man
But I did way back then
When you said it had to end
That I was free
But now you're finding out
I'm hard to do without
For you, I've had no doubts
Just like me

It's personal again
But I can't believe it, my friend
You're back here again
What can I do?
The attitude has died
It's grown up and realized
It had to come back to me in time
Just like you

With the red lights in my eyes
And the gray haze in the sky
With the fire red reflecting back
The neon skin distracts me from where I am
And where I should be
In the winter clear, I sit
And I'm sick of it

As the snow falls on cars
On pedestrians and bars
Wrapped in pea-coats and ***
Under the foggy winter sun I slowly stroll
With a woman in my soul
Like a gypsy king and queen
In a lucid fever dream

Up in the offices and desks
With stress in their chests
These people think of home
While their lovers are alone and stuck with screens
Like windows into scenes
They thought money could buy
As they drift and die

Pouring out from the walls
Of worship chapel halls
With hands in their pockets
Stealing trinkets and lockets to give to the men
Who promise the end
But all will be right
If you pay the right price

From the streets of gods
That will one day rot
Under our wandering feet
When we longer speak but are just memories
Passed on like a disease
On death, I've made my peace
Until then, let me be free

English girls, they never die
They never seem to wonder why
They can get
Any guy

The camera lens takes its toll
It will consume your soul
As the sky pretends
The stars lose control

Darling, I am on my own
I don't even have a home
Pity hurts worse than death
Leave me alone

Somewhere else on this road
I saw a ******* canyon sky explode
But what's in those dark eyes
I'll never know

When it's you and no one else
We're both by ourselves
I hope you keep,
The pictures on your shelf

Blood swims in my eyes
Like the clouds in the sky
Watch over me
When I die