The marks on my body form the map to my past.
Every burn a distant memory of a time I thought I wouldn't last.
I'm forever trapped in this vessel of pity and disgrace.
Can't you see the embarrassment present all over my face?
My soul forever longing the flames warm embrace.
Please. I beg you. Take me to that place.

Yes, we kissed. Many times.
We blamed the liquid courage for our clouded judgement
But the last time....Anyway.
What can I say, I'm a lonely girl.
The light kisses we shared filled that void.
That eternal aching in my bones
And you were their relief.
But just like all good things...you know.
You managed to twist something so innocent into vice.
Something so simple in nature
To a puzzle that's now missing a piece
And will never be complete.
I'm at a lost for words
Yet I can't seem to say enough.
We were once...you know....and now we're just....
Nothing.

So many nights
I now spend,
begging words
that have no meaning,
to the wall

And from darkness filled of empty spirits to
golden beams of sun
I sit
and wait

But

these eyes won't shut
and these thoughts won't leave
Maybe, i wonder, if- you return
will i be able to sleep again?

Months have gone by and still
you echo in my black hole,
your lips still brushing mine
in the wind that caresses my face,
your voice whispering through
the riffs and chords of songs,
your body visible in the contours of trees,
your face in the curves of the clouds,
and looking up desperately at
the night sky,
I envision you glancing at the same stars,
your soul having been imprinted permanently
on the Earth's ceiling,
so even when I close my eyes
you linger in the corners of my mind,
a universe of
constellations and planets,
galactic clusters of
immortal memories and undying
desires.
Months have gone by as I
continue to orbit around
the memory of you,
tilting onto your axis,
spinning round and round as
I try desperately to get back
to you, but you're
galaxies away.

His first kiss, her last kiss
By the bars of the cell he put her in
His love is the love of a bestmans' girl
Who's two hearts follow her across the worlds
This mad man that never realized he waited too long
To love his sweet, Riversong

~                         Where's the me as i am too
                 The red The green The brown The blue
                       Broken clocks the ticking stops
                          All above our chimney tops
                     Mantle brown yet greyed with age
                    On it we keep the lives we've made
                        Earth and ash as dust in bone
                        Where we live we call it home
                      The place we hide inside our lies
                          Reside today its slow decay
                       Tomorrow dreams of yesterday
                       Watch the sun with mystic hues
                 The red the orange the green and blue

Be careful
who you push away,
because you might push
too hard
and they will walk away.

And once they're gone,
you'll need them
and miss them
and you'll be hurt
because you hurt them.

and then
you'll be alone
and regret
will eat you alive
because you pushed away
your life
and your happiness.

Filled with guilt
because you hurt them
by hurting yourself.