Spinning through eternity
Waiting for no end
"Carry on", the angel said
"Don't give up", she said to me
This voice stuck inside my head
Said it isn't time to flee.
"Just sit back", I heard him say,
The voice in red and black.
"Let it all just burn away,
For soon starts the attack."
From their lips the voices cried
Pleading for their score
Beside my neck at either side
These spirits fought a war.
The light side was enlightening,
Though difficult and long
The darkness short and tempting
Promising to make you strong.
The creatures pulled and picked apart
My body, soul and mind.
But bruised the most became my heart
Fearing all that's left behind.
They raged and danced throughout the night
And when the morning came
My choice still shone there, bold and bright,
Just waiting for my name.
Eventfully I couldn't choose
And ripped that fateful bond,
Afraid of what I had to lose
When gods they did respond.
Because I didn't sign the deed,
To earth they sent me back.
I could never fulfill their need
To pick a given track.
But for every choice not taken
A price there is to pay
Two pieces of me, mistaken
For the contract thrown away.
So now, I still hear voices
Can't decide if red or blue.
As I tore myself through choices
Now my soul is split in two.
If you think me indecisive
Good or bad, I cannot hide.
Even if you act derisive
That's for you to decide.
What should I believe?
Feeling, Thinking, Acting Strange
Away from reality
Time flies relative
Instead of stabilizing it
Never carries out as
Stuck inside a place of no return
Wishing I didn't want it all to burn (away)
Constantly searching for the words
Hiding from the self-inflicted opinion of the world
But the more I search, the less I have to say
And all I want is to fade away.
The feeling that there's no escape
That once you've sealed the book of your fate
Decisions made, and people paid
But none of it ever really changed.
Yet all of it will never be the same.
My old life, never seen again.
And even now I cry
No matter how I try
Looking at what I've become
No one else will see
The truth inside of me
Nothing left but feeling numb.
So right now what's left of me
Is this mess that you can't see
And the dark decrepit chills within my soul
The words they try to soother
But there's nothing left to move
I'm Immobilized beyond my control
It is what it is.
Lie the keys to
my success and all my sorrow
Try my best to save
So that I don't have to borrow
Such a sense
of hope and expectation
Forgetting that today
is a way for celebration
A lifetime of waiting
I'm a horse
And out of reach you are my carrot
I can hardly stand to bear it
Too far to see
Most likely going to turn this into a song, but for now merely the words stand out to me.