Feels so good to be back with you
On top of the world again
They said you were no good for me
But i love you.
They gathered in a crowd
Grabbed and yanked at my arms to stop my meeting you
But you make me feel so free
So wild inside.
So in the moment
Not worried about a second that was or will be
Living purely in this tiny moment of now
When i'm with you
I'm so above the ground.

I seem to forget nowadays,
I am afraid,
I don't want to lose my sweet memories,
And not recognise my children.
21/12/2021

It's some sort of feeling
I can almost see
It's like a dream
My friend once described to me
I'm standing in the dark
With you flowing all around me
You and all our memories
You're bleeding out of my arteries
Disappearing in this zero gravity void
Droplets of you fading into the black
But you're not gone yet

Why do I crave
Your attention
This late at night
All I need
Is your breath
In mine
To stay alive

I don't feel special,
I'm not unique.
I want to cry
but I can't even speak.
My hands reach out,
but they cannot hold
a single thing
but the bitter cold.
Everything's frozen,
I feel lost.
Even my tears
have turned to frost.
When I cut my waist
it bleeds black.
I'm so deeply gone
there's no way back.
This is goodbye

Do you see
what I see?

Do you see
A friend in
me?

Am I
What you want
me to be?

Am I
enough for you
to be heard
or to be seen?

Is there anything
wrong with me,
if so will you
tell me?

Am I green
or am I grey?

Am I
good enough
for you to stay,
or will you
leave me astray?

When I have a degree,
with eyes open wide
to give back to society -
will you please consider me?

You don't have what it takes
You don't go to the right school
You don't score high enough
You won't work at ours.

I have work experience,
I am eager to learn more
I promise to work hard -
will you please consider me?

You don't have what it takes
You don't speak like a Native
You don't have our background
You won't work at ours.

I keep my head up high
for I am not giving up.
I may never be enough
but

I will -
LEARN
I will -
WORK
I will -
STRIVE

So just give me a chance.