It was a rainy, cold night,
In a room full of despair and hate
when darkness devoured
what was left in my humanity.

As I was blinded and lost
I succumb in fear.
My mind goes blank,
my heart stops beating,
my tears started to fall.

It was not just a bad dream,
it was the most horrifying nightmare after all.

I'm just a five
She's a perfect ten
I'm just a nobody
She's so popular
I'm just a loser
She's the hottest girl in town

I can't win her
I just know.

Going down the deep ocean
seeking for the only one
with a pearl of dazzling shine
hiding within the line

Seek, seek, and seek
until it reaches to the peak
Hide, hide, and hide
forever on guard

One may haven't notice
the pearl alone in crisis
seeking the only spark
hiding and lonely in the dark

Jealous of the truth
that could never be reboot
that is what is seek has been with the other
and stealing couldn't be the answer

Though pain could rise
enduring it with despise
this hiding won't last forever
but forever seeking to be together

Its haunting me,
the feeling I cannot escape.
I'm lost in this strange maze
with a strange feeling.
Though it sounds like nightmare
but it taste like a beautiful dream.
The sound of music
seems unreal.
It's like a melody, a lullaby
that keeps your heart awake.
The once an empty canvass
now seems to bloom with beauty,
filled with color and piquancy.

This dream isn't done
when I woke up with you.
I'm falling for you.

Day one

Is it done?
Or
It has just began.

I just can't run,
And let it all just be gone.

I look at the fridge..
                                 ..empty.
I look at my wallet..
                                 ..empty.
I look at your picture..
                                 ..instantly I'm full.

You may haven't notice
you may haven't felt it
you may haven't look
     at it that way
but it is you I wanted
it's you that makes me silent
it's you that makes me whole
it's you that makes me smile
it's you that makes my world
it's you that takes my breath away
it's you the reason my heart beats
you may never believe it
but it is you

You may not see me,
        but I always look at you.
You may not hear me,
        but I always listen to you.
I am may be nothing to you,
        but *you are my everything.

Can you hear it?
The laughter of the wind?
Can you see it?
The dancing of the wind?
Can you feel it?
The happiness of the wind?
Can you feel it, can't you?
But why can't I?
Why? Why?
Feeling hopeless towards the world
How could this happen to me?
Seems like everything has gone away
Leaving me alone and cold in the dark
Can anybody hear me?
Why?
Why is this happening to me?

When it's blurry,
Keep it steady.

Take a deep breath,
and take is easy.

Hold my hand,
and let's move slowly,

One step at a time,
'til we can see it clearly.

There's no need to hurry,
we won't go blindly,
but together,
We'll reach our destiny.

I hugged you
I kissed you
I slept with you
but still we're just friends
and nothing more
no commitment
no love
nothing
but what if we start something
something different
something more than we could imagine
if there's just love
if it just exist between the two of us

but I think
it already been realized
the love I have for you
but I could do nothing
'cause we're just friends

Call it whatever you want


I call it having fun.

She looks with a fiery eyes,
But her warm smiles
melted me away.
Wherever you go,
I'll forever flow with you.

Through these years I've been watching
those futile tears that keep on falling
but you're so far and unreachable
by a man who's nothing but trifle.

Through these years I've keep on watching
those teary eyes I want to save from dying
But I'm the one succumb in pain
to this feeling I can not restrain.

Through these years I've been passive
just dreaming of something elusive
now is the time to make a move
now is the time to make her my love.

Close your eyes.
You'll see the world
inside your dream.
Wonderful isn't it?
All you need,
everything you've wanted,
It's all in there.
I know that  in that world
you've been dreaming of,
I don't exist in there.
I know you're happy,
And I don't want to ruin it.
I just have to let go
even if there's no one like you.
You're my only one
but I have to let go.

Falling in love
feels weird.
It's like
ripping your ribcage apart,
gouging your heart out,
taking it to its rightful owner,
and placing it to her chest.

Everything doesn't seem right,
Everything is out of my control.

I always lose,
They always kick my ***,
         shove me away,
         ignored me,
         as if I don't exist.
They spit on my pride
but it doesn't shook me
I stand hard,
I looked up,
I believed.

They inspired me to be stronger
I'm fired up!

I've been told
what the future holds

full of nightmare,
fear and despair,
hatred and terror,
and destruction's reign

the gates of hell opened
and the sky rained fire,
the seas became red as blood,
and the righteous fall before the wicked,
the creations trembled before the burning hell

War will rise
between good and evil,
between angels and demons
the Heavens fury shall strike the earth
mortals vanished
in a blink of an eye

the end is coming
(salvation awaits)

I walked in a path of darkness
Going straight into the abyss
It is something I couldn't resist
for it is the reason I exist

Everything was just a fantasy
Believing that I could be truly happy
For I was blinded by a false light
But now I realize the one with the real might

I had nightmares

but still

got my head up high

Full blast like a speed of light
disappeared in a blink of an eye
stronger than the force of gravity
even exceeds to nuclear energy
mathematicians couldn't even calculate
chemist couldn't even analyze
physicist couldn't even solve
engineers couldn't even imagine
I wonder what it is
it's just another mystery

Smiles so true
that even the skies blushes
Laughter strikes
like a dagger of wind piercing through
Covered by strangers
like a hero gushing forth

Those were fragments
of memories so glorious
Bashed by grieve and sorrow
Dazzled by pride and ego
nowhere to run
nowhere to hide
Remorse renders the heart

I just can't believe my eyes,
In my front is an alluring lass.
With pitch-black hair and radiant smile.
With silky skin and warm vibes.
With a soft embrace and skinny thighs.
With pink lips that kisses like a sun rays,
which blows all the cold night's haze.

I closed my eyes
and lie down
with so many burdens
to carry on my shoulders.

I closed my eyes
and rest,
thinking will I
ever wake up tomorrow?

I closed my eyes
and pray,
hoping to see
the bright light again.

My mind has lost at the moment
When our eyes have met
Pretending nothing happened
But it’s not what it seemed
Obsession I can’t handle
But you’re the one who light my candle
You are my addiction
You are my direction
Sometimes I got the feeling that you’re looking over me
Was that just a dream or fantasy?
Silence is my enemy
When you’re in front of me
You make me feel the heaven’s way
But why can’t I say
I don’t want to lose you
But I don’t know what to do
I just have to find a way out
There has to be way that I could let it shout
I just have to look into your eye
Maybe it’s worth a try
Maybe those ears are willing to listen
To my heart that already beaten
To fall for you
Only for you

Anything can be out of order
even winds changes direction,
even big trees fall down,
even water dries up,
even sun will be covered by the moon.

Human is no different
life is full of uncertainties,
life is full of mysteries,
life is full of possibilities.

Sun rises and sun sets
And the light fades away
As soon as the shadow reigns
In the dead of the night.

Agony covers the sky
Yet stars twinkle
And the moon sparks
With gentle ray.

In this rainy day,
Everything is so lonely.
No smiles, only tears.
Even I couldn't speak out
The sadness inside of me.

In this rainy day,
Everything is not right.
You're not here with me
Even the sky
cries with me.

I just wanna be with you.

If someone makes you happy,
make them happier,

even at the cost of your happiness.