I’m lost.

I have no clue on what’s going on
Or what am I supposed to do.

It’s like I’m drowning.

Help.

Long nights became months
Of waiting for you to be back
It didn't matter anymore
For I know you'd never return.
You found comfort from other blankets
Which mine was too thin to be shared
You got a new mattress
Where you lie down and sleep peacefully
Knowing there's no more ME to love YOU anymore.

we're stuck here.
where we embrace anxiety and depression
instead of fighting it.
where if you are happy,
you might be fake.

cause everybody feel sadness.

but I don't choose to live in it.

it has been a year.
since you stopped talking to me.
a year when you broke my heart and I decided to use someone else's to fix it.
a year where I was miserable and maybe desperate.
a year when I was scared but hid behind the mask of happiness.

and its almost a year when i was healed.
fixed from the broken pieces you left me with.
a year when I learned to smile again,
not only showing my teeth but real emotions.

real emotions and feelings we failed to share.