I am an insomniac by association.
I associate with sleepless nights and mindsets that are too wobbly and shaky to be anything less than a tornado.
I want to rename my veins after hurricanes.
This one's Sandy because it washed away the girl I loved in New Jersey.
Because the ocean is never as salty as my cheeks after I kiss her through the miles.
Because I am not a boy, because my mother thinks I wear black because I used to slit my wrists.
Because of my tattoos that whisper of their memories while I lay in bed counting the stars I can't see.
So I start counting the stars I see in my head.
So I started taking drugs that made me see them instead.
I am an insomniac because I want to sleep but only when I remember the reasons why I can't.

For four days in May I'm going into the wild
Four days in the woods sleeping under a tarp
Why? Because for four days I can sit and write
Of day time views and noises of the night
No one else will be there to disturb my thoughts
No one I will need to support
Just me with the sounds of insects and birds
Four days without worries,  four days without cares

Her face is wrapped in snakes
Her skin shingles of mud
and when the rooster crows
she comes to save her blood.
The loss of childlike purity
it was never hers to lose.
Chained to the bed
wishing to be dead
but the man must always choose.

Not at any one time
Had I thought there would be a light at the end of the tunnel,

Never had I thought that I would find a key to unlock so many doors - so many solutions to my troubles,

I would never have thought I'd grow so tall to see over the plot of darkness that blinded me,

And then there was you.

When I met you, you carried me, you lifted me up so high that the darkness could no longer lurk at eye level,
It could no longer latch on to my leg as you clasped my fragile body and pulled me free from the dark's grasp, it's fingertips sliding off the soles of my feet.

At that point I was breathless,
As you ripped every last ache and pain that I was feeling, right from my heart, and watched as it broke into a million pieces, as sharp as shards of glass, painful and dangerous.

But it was gone,
Just like that.
The darkness had seemed so difficult to remove,
Yet the slightest of effort was made as your angelic hands lifted me away from all danger,

It's as if you're a saint in disguise,
As if we were destined to fall in love as soon as my eyes met yours,
From that moment on,
I knew that you were the light at the end of my tunnel,
The key to my doors,
The height of growth to my freedom of the dark - my saviour.
The answer to all of my questions
My reason to love,to live, to hold on,
The reason that I believe true love still exists.

The fiery red light was staring into my soul.
There was nobody around...
So naturally I hit the gas.

Looked up in that rear view
and some crazy blue lights were ashinin'.
Then came my swerve of shame to the beckoning curb.

My friend to the right kept his cool
While mowing down on two cheese burgers
As he ate, I shook with a casual fear.

The talk with the police was brief
I handed him my license and registration
and he skipped back over to that cop car.

I sat in fear
he ate burgers
we waited

My boy the police came right on back.
he gave me the blissful news.
NO TICKET.

He began the lecture of eating and driving.
that's when my little burger eater chimed right in.
"Sir, I was just handing her a pickle"

I confirmed the statement.
And next thing I knew I was rollin the streets again
Lucked out.