Nothing can fill this hole inside me
The endless vacuum that makes me want to scream
That creates a desire to cut open my seams
A void of despair
How do I repair
The brokenness I find
In all of my dreams

Hopeful for sanity
Bound up in mediocrity
Okay but not fine
Dancing with satan
It’s Hard when you’re not alright
To feel revelation.

I devour myself
Dissolve myself like acid
Erode myself
Starting at the sides, I move in on myself

corner myself
shatter myself
Starting at the edges, I consume myself

abrade myself
crumble myself
Starting at the ends, I chip away at myself

Break myself
Mistake myself
feed off myself
Inside, I devour myself

I don't feel special,
I'm not unique.
I want to cry
but I can't even speak.
My hands reach out,
but they cannot hold
a single thing
but the bitter cold.
Everything's frozen,
I feel lost.
Even my tears
have turned to frost.
When I cut my waist
it bleeds black.
I'm so deeply gone
there's no way back.
This is goodbye

All I know
Is how
I feel

And sometimes I
Wish I
Knew nothing

I have made mistakes
Quiet a few
More than I can name to you.

I have fallen short
Dug my grave
Thought I wasn’t worthy to save.

I’ve given up
I’ve fallen down
But I’ve not remained upon the ground.

Because life is short
And moments fleeting
So, in spite of my fearful heart,
I will keep dreaming.