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Jan 2015 holls

Samantha Ellis

i crave the taste
of stale cigarettes and beer
cuz it was the taste of your mouth
what happened here?

i long for
the misspelled drunk texts
that once annoyed me
phone buzzes i flinch, reflex.

i ache for
the feeling of your chest
under my head as i fall asleep
only way i could rest

i hunger for
your love
-all to myself
we never should of.

#love #passion #you #ache #miss #hunger #crave #aching #itried #mightdeletesoon

Jan 2015 holls

canvas.

Jan 2015 holls

willow martz

canvas.

if i could use
the stars to show my
love for you,
the entire night sky
would not be vast enough
of a canvas.

#stars

Jan 2015 holls

To afraid to die

Jan 2015 holls

Lyla

To afraid to die

I hope one day I will fade
like the breath of a person,
or finger print on a clouded window
that disappears as fast as it arrived.

I am not brave enough to wipe away
my name smudged into the window,
or erase my existence from this world
as i cannot keep my thoughts straight.

#suicide #depression #death #dead #disappear #fade

Nov 2014 holls

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Nov 2014 holls

Altering Atmospheres

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I can only write you
as grouped letters meaningful to me
and symbols whose meanings only i can see
but never as words as beautiful
or depictions as perfect as you

I won't be moving forward
nor will I be stepping back
I'll just stay here still and still
and expect you to stay
with me
and need you to stay
with me
and want you to stay
with me
and have you
with me

But you are never
those fantasies
You're the truth too sane
to point out there can never be
we
or both of us

At the end of the day,
all is the same
you remain the last thought on my mind
before I sleep
in strong comfort that's not
strong enough to
let me momentarily forget
you one bit

Not one bit

Wrote this last night. I was feeling so down.

#love #heartbreak #sad

Nov 2014 holls

Take My All

Nov 2014 holls

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Take My All

I wish to spend the rest of my time kissing you with kisses so divine, they recognize your skin from another lifetime and dance around your eyes in perfect unison.
I need to know how you were made, what made you who you are? And so I trace your every line and mark your every flaw. I never saw a man so beautiful.
Take my kisses, take my wishes, take my willing soul. I will never from you part, if you will take my all.

11-29-14

Nov 2014 holls

Eating

Nov 2014 holls

IvyWithRed

Eating

Dearest Ana when I look at you I see how skinny you are,
You told me I could look like my favorite movie star,
I thought you were my friend,
But you were really trying to make my life end,
I lied to my friends and even my family,
"I already ate"
The truth was I just threw away the food on my plate,
I was so mislead,
You wanted me dead,
I would step on the scale,
You would make me feel as fat as a whale,
You made my soul black,
I want my old life back,
You told me I just couldn't handle it,
I might as well quit,
But I couldn't stop,
I couldn't walk on my feet,
I couldn't even eat,
I'm losing my confidence,
Please bring back my common sense,
I used to love fries,
But now I may die,
Today is the day my heart stops beating,
Today is the day I stopped eating.

Nov 2014 holls

Wolf Song

Nov 2014 holls

Mariah

Wolf Song

i.

summer stained your arms
with the rays of sunshine
that spill through to you
and you wear it proudly
wear the crown of thorns
placed on your head
by someone who’s long gone

ii.

last night i was singing
about seeing you again
and i don’t think i will
maybe i’ll go to the peak
of the highest mountain
and i’ll count everyone i can
and come down when it’s enough
that you might have been one of them

iii.

i’ll leak drizzle onto my palms
i’ll stay still till i rust
and then turn into dust
and people plant flowers
where my mind used to be
and the wolves and girls
will cry, cry for me
until the babies i had
finally learn to speak

#love #depression #life #flowers #lost #nature #summer #thoughts