today i felt the need to let go.

no, im not telling you for the
sake of seeking attention.

but today i had to let go...

let go of my worries,
stresses, thoughts, insecurities
that have been engulfing me;
worsening by the moment.

so i erased it all from my mind.
only giving it the freedom
to return at any other time

any other time
but now.

because i could no longer carry
the suffocating weight of
the burden of those feelings
on my mind

my sanity was on the
brink of mental destruction,
overwhelming and no control.

so i let it out feelings and thoughts
in a way that brought with it
a limited peace card.

in the form of steamy streams of
hot torrents that manifested
the arduous pain - my bottled up
emotions and its result that
came in floods leaving me feeling
a drip of rectifying relief...

but not close to
feeling satisfied.

although to be honest
it pacified me
long enough for me
to attentively apprehend
that emotions and feelings
were tides; continuously
falling and rising

but with time
I’d be in the last stages
of my metamorphosis
I’d be in control of the tide
I’d be surfing along its waves
finally infused with tranquility

because for the first time
in what would be a long time,
i would be at peace.

-z

I don’t trust people anymore.
I just dont have time for all of that;
faking myself, my reactions, my real thoughts
just to make it easy for someone
who wouldn’t reciprocate my actions

I just can’t trust people now.
they’ve done so much to hurt me
bring me down, see anything but happiness on my face

I don’t allow myself to trust people anymore.
because they think that promising you
that they love you and they’ve known you for so long
is enough to stitch and cover up their words,
hidden glances and watchful eyes

Thats why I don’t trust people anymore.
because they strike you at your weakest
like a snake hiding through the grass
until theyre close enough
to hit you where it hurts most


Thats why I’ve had enough
of trusting people.


-z

don't stay in your circle.
don't trust the people you see,
daily.

don't stay in your circle.
don't become comfortable with the constants that
distract you from the painful truths of reality.

don't stay in your circle.
don't deny that things aren't going your way.
don't detach yourself from the you you want to be.

don't stay in your circle.
don't rely on a persons exhibited thoughts of you.
don't believe so easily, for you will fall just as easily.

don’t stay in your circle.
don't risk your wellbeing for a momentary feeling of joy.
don't forget that people shouldn’t be trusted.

don’t stay in your circle. or you’ll be restricted the chance to know the damage of your circle. because despite it being able to strengthen you... it also blinds you, manipulates you and dominates you.

don’t stay in your circle for they are the subjects that will destroy you. leaving you no where to turn to. and absolutely nothing to look forward to.

so don’t put yourself in that situation.
dont stay in your circle.


-z

And don't spend your days weeping,
over a subject that doesn't stop to wonder
about you and your worrying demeanour.

And don't even bother spending nights
and even days empty, hoping for a reply
from the mysterious person who once filled your mind.

And don't you think to question yourself
for their demeaning actions
that have left you cold and unattached.

For if they wanted to
they would've.

-z