I’ve got the ache, it tells me: “Wrong!”
And I keep thinking all day long,
Is this the way, is this the time?
Or is that what I do a crime?

The thoughts of worry burn me down.
I’m zoning out, lost track of time.
I wanna run away from town,
Escape chills going down my spine.

Once craving mind is now in ruins.
The heart can’t see, it’s blank and blind.
I guess I’m horrified of humans,
In cruel world I’m helpless child.

Cold hearted world is what I face,
It’s suffering that I embrace.
Looking for place where I belong,
It’s on the other side of storm.

To get out I have to go through,
Forget what I believed was true.
Though I won’t forget tears of pain that I cried,
I promise I’ll foster myself not to hide.

Still being attached to you shreds my soul.
I can tell you played a damaging role.
I still feel the blade you left in my chest.
I want to break free, tired of being possessed.

I’m sick of wearing mask of joy.
I see you think that I’m a toy.
I fear nostalgia tricks me here.
And past days suddenly seem real.

I’M LOST!!
Violently tossed,
Disarmed again,
Can’t numb the pain.

I’m a blade runner,
Cold-hearted summer,
Misunderstood opinion,
Bitter sweet oblivion.

Once made a wish
That I wanna vanish.
Lightning struck me.
Now whát?
Am I stuck here?

I’M FADED!! I’M FADED!!
Where is the edge?
The house is haunted.
Is death a revenge?

Am I hallucinating?
Is this all real around?
I guess I’m levitating.
I cannot feel the ground.

I turn on Radiohead,
All day dissociate in my bed.
I’m looking for remedy
To cure my broken melody.

I put on blissful Deftones.
I feel them healing my bones.
But night muted sound again.
Is my suffering vain?

Erase my memory
‘Cause I hate telling lies.
Awake trust in me
As I stare in your eyes.

We’re acting so shady.
Our voices are quiet,
Still can’t tell our stories.
They might cause a riot.

What’s wrong with desire
To be understood?
World put us in chains.
Can we be cured?

We’re going insane.
It’s a dangerous game.
It’s suspicious and has
No escape from the pain.

We love! Do we love?
Is this enough?
Our feelings are rotten.
We will be forgotten.

You break your heart,
I break my own.
Let’s just restart.
Let’s just reborn.

We dream of our hearts
Being peaceful as hell.
SO WE HIDE!!
Though some hit us hard
We are gonna be swell.
Right?

You stepped off a cliff by accident
No reason to feel this way is evident
To everyone around you seem so weak and shallow
The only one you trust your secrets is your shadow

You’re drowning silently alone
The chest is heavy, it’s a stone
Each breath takes so much will
It’s getting hard to take a step without a pill

You see your own reflection as the enemy
You feel ashamed to talk about it to your family
You go on in a suffer mode
The path is faded, it’s a dangerous road

You face unknown - you face the fear
Your mama says, ”Calm down, my dear”
You wish the words could heal the scars
Each time you see the falling stars

i am like a star
distant and dying
a long-healing scar
hardly ever at peace
i see past mistakes
it's emergency. call police!

i swear i thought that i had control
a moment flew by and i ******* it all
i couldn't get rid of those violent words
they broke me. they stroke me
they cut me like swords

u played unfair
still i was your saviour
are you ever sick of your two-faced behaviour?
u left me empty, used, confused
a storm was approaching
u were amused

why would u play sinless?
u can’t hide reality
can you lose your pride when it comes to morality?
the only way out for u was confession
since you’ve never cared i chose isolation

i tried to escape - i got out of breath
it seemed i was closer than ever to death
my mind's peaceful places are gone
skies collapse
it's motionless creature's relapse

it’s my new era of same old mistakes
why strangers shout to me, "whatever it takes" ?
mirrors exult
but i am overwhelmed
my carefree era came to an end

i couldn’t see clearly. i was disordered
still i had to take another step forward
soft lullaby
shortness of breath
weird. i'm one day closer to death

i gave it a shot. i played my part
i buried a feeling that tore at my heart
in silence i stood through the pain and the treason
broken and bruised
yet i know there’s a reason

i tried to keep my head above water
still felt uneasy. a failure daughter
guess i saw dreams being taken to slaughter
no wrong path exists
(should’ve known to be stronger)

forgive me my weakness
i’ve stumbled. i’ve bled
forgive all the chaos that spins in my head
expect me to change, let the past fall away
i'll shatter the chains that have led me astray

i strive to fathom the nature of pain
a question that circles and echos in vain
this season has shattered me
left me undone
but still i could find a reason to run

innocent wind lures me into the wild
a place from my dreams
where i slowly bleed out
i wanna be gone to the most remote forest
that's where for sure i will be my calmest

we’re fallen angels
we rebelled
we stood our ground
we got expelled

the sky above us is a void
irrational air is quite paranoid
in blood we’re lying on the floor
we know it won’t be as before

though it is our first time living
sky doesn’t seem to be forgiving
in everlasting quiet pain
we pray for the spark in the rain

to hear in deathly silence noise…
oh i can tell my mind destroys
i’m used to climb most fragile wall
i can predict next time i fall

oh do u really think i’m fake?
then watch me drowning in the lake
eternal peace under water
you’re wrong by calling it slaughter

right, i’ve got better things to do
but i’m stuck looking for what’s true
thoughts every second, every hour
what are the chances to recover?

morbid temptation lights a spark
but i’m in ruins – whatever.
i know! i know that i’m desperately trapped
do i care to resist?
almost never

i’m ready for sudden explosion
i step into my fog of poison
can’t tell if some day it will disappear
i tend to explore what’s never been real

i’m used to question every feeling
my swollen rage was never healing
i’m used to deny
i’m used to repress
do rotten kids sometimes get blessed?

we tolerated darkest hours
refused to bury ugly flowers
what’s left in our hearts is only despair
we’re innocent
this is unfair

what was the day it all went wrong?
i was never really aware
first time i felt that i didn’t belong?
back then i didn’t beware

too late to escape (i know)
too early to rage (not at all)
let’s go insane
we’ve done such a mess
let’s laugh in the eyes of the death

u know it’s just the way i feel
i’m drained of suffering
i wanna heal
but something sinister won’t lemme breathe
it’s so evil angels would freeze

no wonder i lost my reflection
shadow is the only connection
sometimes i wish i could just disappear
as if my existence was never real

it’s total eclipse of the heart
is there a reason to wake up?
is this just a phase?
well, it doesn’t matter
living just in case things get better