Winter feather bed
Send me harmony
In the shape of daffodils
Filling the greenery
Singing sweetly spring
Out of its hiding place

Ground to cover
Our wings wiser
Wind of wishing
Warming up as
Chirps demand eyes
Open at early hours

Taking it a step at a time
Light headed dizzy wit
Silver side glances
Meander to the bathroom
Relieve myself , head back to bed
Taking it step by step

nothing to this but the cycle
So what if there's a new season ,
time dont mean a thing

Based upon an old self /
you are a shiver and a coma
And im just settling

Starting to think we really were made
For this day and age - these lights
Your scarlet face / the waves

I love you as if i never breathed until i loved you. I love you as if the sun reflecting off the moon was only the light of our love. I love you as the waves wash onto the beach and the tides shift with each kiss.  I love the music i hear when i think of you or the music we make when we touch. I love you for eternity and beyond that because my love for you is not governed by any law of nature. You are my lovely one and only love.

Since impacted, my heart mind,
However aged and torn at,
Still grasping at growing over
the skin and keeping close
Forever keeping this burden getting deeper within
this burning hot pice of star dust
With all her rays of light of other worldly
Cosmic perspections in another depth
With her light rays, whether they are her or reflections from the sun
or just her sense of the world
and its wonders
Like her, it wonders itself
Almost in the same way I'm sure
but am i sure
I'm sure not enough
but almost
Enough to the heart from the mind, but forever?
As it seems
Keeping
All the while
the mind attached to the heart.
Not even the sharpest pains of reality
Of fear
Maybe both in the same
Can truly divide this heart of mind.

i admit that my dreams get more vivid when i stop smoking ***
youre the same as my business , i dont like you a lot
my change equal three dollar bills less more than a coffee
dont ask for my name when im wearing a mask, you copy?

im a teen as ignorant as you seen me last night
getting out of my car to yell, smashing crack pipes
two simple to be ghost you wont see me , this is the last time

she wont answer her tumblr she said shes tired of trying

There we were vagrants in my fathers old house
Amid trash , you didn't mind for it was our mess
Just as we are to make it sealed with a kiss
They found us, and forced us to conform.  

Take me out, lay me down, let the dirt fall all around
Aint it good to be back home.  

I taught you how to play guitar, and duet with me
on the song I love more than the rest, because its yours
Cookie moon, Im so in love with you when you smile

So there I was, shaking the hand of my heroes
who all knew me by name. Some kid opened for an empty floor
and it wasn't me.  no I was after him.
Instead I was going for our first kiss
and there it was, better than all the other dreams
The side stage curtains flapped up with the gust that was us
you kissing me sloppy, I have more teaching to do

There I was with a broken guitar getting it micd
and you over there smiling because you are high
or maybe because you love me too. I dont know
because I woke up a state away, sweating
clutching a pillow I hoped would be you.

what keeps us bound on earth?
theres nothing keeping you to me
something is always keeping us apart
yet my thought my prayers they are for you

where are you this time of night?
when my bed is warm enough for two
nothing not even fabric in between
but its not us just me alone in calm sea

where have you been all my life ?
now that the sun of my innocense has set
does the devil have your number too
is that why we can lay awake for days

when will you be coming home?
its lonely without you here you know
you are my sun and moon
im the planet being stirred up.  even tho
your worlds not big enough for both of us
even tho you are all my shooting stars

beckoning
me cold
on them
tiles i love
lithium
born alone
cold friend

World of weight in balance
Things you never see -  blind
Effects of smiles thrown overboard
In this together, how are you so alone?
Getting away with pride- false pride
Putting yourself down, dead weight
Running away from your dreams

every one of us has got a little bit of selfish inside
say it all how you felt it for the very first time
but don't you ever feel pressed to say anything?

breaking tide with every way ward step on this
thing we call the depths of, atlantic tides, i need
to skate, hit some guys on the other side of the rink

you should be careful of what you wish for

every one of us has got a little bit of evil inside
embrace it if you don't, it will control your life
I'm on this continent of broken lies, and I'm lying

down in, what I wish for is to be able to be happy being
alone,  I'm done wishing for another person I am my own
ill wish something for you, what do you want carefully?

holding back a laugh , smiling in my own mirrors cleverly

The sun will come out tomorrow
Bizzaro //A real hard act to follow
they pour like liquid valentines
Villains
Some get lost going home
Most get moist-in a moan
Document the sweetness
Sorrow - gets set on fire
Ember- doused; a funeral
Empire. Reeds on the bank
A foggy morning riverside

Promenade in the rain
Reminding my ears
We are still alive

dew drops and sprinkler smells
flood my streets- naked in the middle
song birds hover around your halo

faking cries of distant land of Aberdeen
come as you are, hero wrapped in cellophane
does Satan love me being an alcoholic ?

Thought she was laughing across the parlor
When her breathes turned to shrieks
And my ears began to reel- realizing
mascara was running down her face
She begged for breathe but the pain was too eminence
No one could say anything

Its stained in my memory
Every noise now a relief-
I heard a breaking heart
Mistaken for a flutter of joy

And still repeating in my head
the chanting of her children
"Shes crying shes crying"

ash in my mouth
hot mother *******
burning embers
in my mouth
you used to be
daily a routine
when did it end
when did it begin
skin the epitaph
characters inkd in

separated at birth
living life looking
glass works
setting change all its
fires
hookers
and worth

Every day you can go there
Even if its ten in the morning
Someone will ask with a drugged slur

Can you help me find my name?
We sell English ?
We sell coffins ?
But We dont sell nails ?

Make your skin crawl any time
licking all them ******* toads.
Equated to a near death experience

As i sit here in this downpour
My instinct to be silent
Bathe in that silence
Its ironic pleating
a million single drops of rain
Falling from heaven
Picking up fury as if it heard me
I can feel it get closer as if it could tear holes through this balcony ceiling
And wet me down to my bones
Like our skin does with its blood
In the rose of our perfect union
Louder and loudest untill it is a wall
Will us painting it black waves
With pinpricks of searing rain
Piercing our skin untill it bleeds out
Freedom, while freedom is from Hades
Our pin drops distancing untill the breeze muffles the sound of the storm
Slipping off the leaves , echoing whistling through Holes, like bullets torn through our flesh, rain drops
The wind playing the song that whispers us together

Failing topics and endless sunburst
Green stained bronze, for this ball room chatter
Dreams of you on the mezzanine
Coming down the stairs happy to see me
Yet now they have reversed. It is you
Who can not come upstairs, house of proper
My wife giving akward glances from over her shoulder ,

Old friends , and ***** dens
Memories hidden inthe dust and murk
Wallow in squalor , under the decks of a high hoisted ,
Eleven white painted canvas for a tall ship
Cutting lukewarm Mediterranean seas
Falling tropics, and sand breeze
Dry humidity, salty clothes, silence over the wind

Hailing a cab
The splashing of more important things around me, a chill ness that kisses my entire face up and down, runs her sleek January nothing through my hair.
Saving fair a block early to get a bite to eat
Fair weather traveller heading home to his hole
Digging to come out the turnstile
Old habits / catching the subway.

Merry weather fan, snacking on peanuts
Glancing out the window, over your nervousness
How high do planes fly? 35000 feet and you've never looked better, smiles shaking hands with each other.  Strangers , every time
Experiencing life in second sight.

sometimes
were given chances

some of them hidden
some of them obvious

to cut and make short cuts
cuddle in black and white

and short shorts


somereads
were foundbi chance

some of them hidden
some of them obvious

who cut up the short runs
favorite films as you say so

and short stories

Fourteen , his whole life ahead of him
Broken hearted, he already knew of that
Guitar , his only true friend at night
Manic depression, keeping him up and down
Sobriety, the only thing keeping him drowning
Leaving, our hearts open wounds on heart day

Replaying the past in my head
The night I let you in, and how did I?
How easy it was, to forgive and trust
never again, fear no serpents in my bed
addicted to the feeling of connection

My trauma filled heart- invaded in seconds
Thorns stripped away, thickness of your skin
Roses with bleeding peddles, persuading me
To stay in this feeling of false harmony,
How deaf am I?

Pretty ******* deaf
I didnt hear them knocking at the door
How dead am I?
Just dead enough to wait for them
To relocate your pale body before
Your soul drifts though the ceiling.  

So when we grow up
maybe or not
maybe you won't notice
But maybe you will
                                    do me the decency
Of letting me know you are alive
And that you knew what you wanted?

Lights hale in a purple glow
I laid alive on the floor
Trying hard to let it all go
the way
You used to float
on a beautiful wind
Your feet touched the air
that touched my skin
I wanted to hold you close
as if that was all I had
You nearly synched into my world
You made it turn to plaid.

breath pressed between your teeth
whistling, you can still get what you want
just a little more patience, waiting
ill refrain from spreading the truth
patient enough to lose your breath
pressing between your eye lids
completely submerged under water
getting all that you wanted

Do unto me,
as you do onto yourself
i want to feel how i love you
compared to how you love yourself , not in your sleep

Set upon it,
as a newborn lamb
i am meek and to be slaughtered
waxing and waning lamb of god and divine slumber

We lay there smiling
till we notice were happy

Do you have something left to say?
I caught your mascara tears
staining your favorite blankets
funny why are you wearing make up?
when you knew of this break up...
somewhere to be after me?

yeah its not fair
to see the butcher cry
as they chop out the liver
bone saws the emotion

players dont cry, Babe
you should stick to your own game
Baby, I've played and gotten away
with being the "Broken Hearted"

Here i am in the field
My lonely breath visible
Not waiting, but living.
Without you hearing
Yet always listening
As you have taught me.
I will always be smiling
In your mind, find me
Smiling, writing love to you.
If you hear me whispering
Throughout the wind that we are
Know that i am only singing to you.
I am only home with you, without
I am only wandering the storm.

ive been in a coma
so they tell me
i swear its been a week
they tell me four months

been asound sleeper
the devil licking my ear
crying
screaming like the cerebral witch
that and the likes
all your doing
dont blame yourself

Flesh light rooms
Come again soon
Force me thoughts
Of beije and maroon
Often is as often looms
On every street corner
Soft while playing
coffin blues

taking glances in the rain
at the way it runs down your face
strangers still playing silly games
suddennow let every thing change
hey now hey now
dont make this harder
hey now hey now
you dont mean this right now
hey now you dont have to change
but you know you cant stay the same

taking you out in the rain
along with the way you hurt me
but dont realize it youre perfect
thats why i dont need you to change
but i cant have you stay the same
because we both know the way this is going
thats it will never ever be worth it
hey now hey now
dont make this hard now
hey now hey now
you dont have to walk that far now
better stay changing babe

this week the feeding tube, bleeds you out
hospital subbasement , who do you trust
medical degree in years spent in insanity
cut out the organs that do not do anything
bleeed
yourself, for your blood ******* family
leave your skin open, and dripping
red walls leave blood stains on cement
wake up here, surrounded by confusion
apathy , on the faces of the nurses around you
helping the doctor. operate
steal this heart, while it beats

you will not find me, in any obituary
my body is lost in the woods
you will not find me, on an epitaph
my last words written with my nails
scratched in , to wood, in vain
scrapes and wounds , bleed in vain
white walls, block the scenery
red cement, stained by the blood you bring me
fresh meat

fresh meat
bring me fresh meat
the doctor is calling
for fresh meat,
bring your own blood!

im rotting dead in a pit.
im glad you helped me dig.
i just wish it was more big.
im greedy even in death.
leaving right here, im sent.
punctuation for a hypocrite.
snorting lines, leaving my heaven sent.

Just how to start it
Awe cast in stubborn silence

Vain and blank
Nymph be my undoing
Be my sunrises
Bear my wishes

Vampires beg on their knees
Kings hire mages to part the seas
I set myself on stone
You've already ran and come back
I have wishes and I have sent myself away

Here we are in this sea of blank
And the end is never fake
In the city by the lake
The place where I was born
Drowning by the rain we danced for

Believe
Believe in me
Believe

Pain and payment saturate me
Beyond the better disbelief of this
Leave my body on the pavement

Pray this degradations done separating
Whispers heard through closed doors
Leave me in a blatant panic attack, panting

Your head on my chest, i think of us
Keeps me warm so wont you write soon?
all i asked of the guardian angels

She said you will be a much better author than I, I smiled and said
I know you will be fine

As the blood runs red , lips stained
Empty mirrors / like bad dreams

When were lovers best of friends not fighters
song birds singing for themselves to pretend
they are not ours, instead the world is theirs.
When the world is owned by power or greed
I will never know, I wont see where the bill does go
whos paying the power bill and who shut off the water .
Who's the original tenant, and whos moving in later

I zoom out of my head for one second
but all I see is us dwarfed by the sun

She makes me vivid
Happy because it is
Beautiful simply because

She gives me kisses
Not hers, they are mine
How uniform this is

We make each other
Happy because we are
Beautiful soulely  because

Did you know that you could call me anytime?
Don't you know that if there is more on your mind
you can write me a letter-or a novel
Ill find it in the mail that I'm going to check daily until
the next time we live,
                                       within walking distance
if you move to Tacoma I will rent out monthly
just to see you in my off time again daily.
Don't you know I would expect the same from  you

Hey did you know you could visit me , Hottie?
your car is good on gas and I know your school is done
we could explore the wild world together
I hear above the mojave , the stars are incredible
and the rain isn't heave enough for us to love
we can stay friends in the dry , or we can move to the coast.

Don't you want to move to the coast?

I couldn't understand
But once again,
Something i have been feeling
Even as it is -- a feeling
Is making me begin to eat in
Myself making a meal
In my dreams


As i still make the deals
Yet she rights the wrong

I keep making plans to disappear
Sometimes they become a part of me
Something that i might not understand
Why do i want to become that man-?
Forced with decisions second hand
Of course what it takes to go to France
Release a virus , or impeach the hands.
What it would take to be that be that and
Not be the same person that i always am
Wake up one day to me gone  and sigh
****

i am just an observer of the city of angels
and constant danger
thinking calis just wine and ******* but
it aint **** if we aint together
its me passing by a vagrant to the love
and what it is to them

i just want you to be grateful to love your hood
and let me know if its not allgood
so here i am trying to hit the studio to immortalize
youve got to be there to know it
youve got to coorperate with god in your eyes
what everyone wants to see
is me to live and die in la
to live and die in la

Some days i cant breathe
Not because of the air
Just because i dont have the time

Were all so caught up , we cant look up
All day long. Rather sleep it away
We could always lay and watch the sky

So much bigger than little old us
The vagrant beings ignoring their master
Be awkward when the sky is another friend

Eye spine a different nine, stolen time
Tombstones compliment our skyline
A coffin slipping itself into its grave
Shallow dirt under the cement
Did she find what she was looking for?
A shadow slips behind the stage
Vacant household in a silent silhouette
Masterpiece purchased for its frame
A Head mounted on a wooden plaque
Taxidermist trophy husband - prideful
Mistaken muse entropic groping
"I want you inside me "
Vored perception of a lustful vivisection - a pause
My keys- the door

Or temptress
Ascend this
Obsession
Not alone
Stressing
A blessing
Guessing
Head strings
Lessons
Dont mention
Etching

I can truly say you were the best
That ever happened to me

It seems as if i was the most unhealthy
Thing for you

I never meant to hurt you
Didnt ever want to be the one
Some dreamers are innocent like you
Strategy their favorite , heart blind
Never wanted to be your beast
I dont want to only see you sometimes
I'll never be able to not let you chose
It isn't even up to me as a choice
Fate comes down in acid rain drops
This statue fades away every time
No reason to save face