my one wish is
to find someone
who sees the world
as beautiful as i do
with their mouth
preaching poetic beauty
as i have once done
to all the boys
i have loved

i spent my life trying to please
someone with a twisted disease
i broke myself down
and tucked my feelings away
to become the person
they wanted me to be
i let myself be watched
through the glass of a two sided mirror
of a sociopath
i wallowed my spirit away
and begged for acceptance
but there’s nothing in the world
that i could do
to let the narcissist know
that i am human too

My thirst grows as the cup flows
If I drink
My lips will turn red as a rose
If I drink
My thirst will not learn to slow
So I bite my tongue
and I say
"keep me safe, keep me safe"

baby don’t be sad
if you are the sun
and i am the moon
for we will meet soon
and it will be beautiful
a beautiful eclipse

a feather, even
if anger was a boulder
i rather shoulder.

Glamorous yet humble
Outgoing yet shy
Loving yet distant
Trusting yet skeptical
Happy yet alone.
Attributes and faults
Our human face exposed.
Life is full of choices
Some good, some bad
Light shines bright
Wherever we are.
Humble yet poor
Shy yet desirable
Distant yet adored
Skeptical yet satisfied
Alone yet full of life.
This circle's rotation
Continuously refines us
From our lowest self
To our highest creation.

is navigated by a steady ghost.