where are you now?
I don't know why I'm asking that
I'll probably never hear from you
but I'll still keep wondering
what its gonna be like
would you ever text me back
or should I quit waiting
will it ever end?
or will we keep on repeating?
every time you take a pause
I assume you have found some cause
to stop it all and turn it back
to whatever it was
before it began
but every time you'd prove me wrong
and come back after so long
that I start to doubt
are we even strong?
you leave me confused
and call it handling my issues
like it was my fault
I'd apologize, I was quite dumb
then you'd act like we good
bursting up my phone
asking for some nudes
when I would refuse
you'd go away
before I'd fall out of love
you'd come back
only to leave again
I guess the thing I'm scared most of is letting myself fall completely for you.
I'm afraid that after I decide to completely fall that's when you'll decide you don't want to catch me anymore
And I'll hit the ground pretending I'm just fine
Then I look at your contagious smile and your big brown eyes looing back into mine
I get this feeling that nobody's made me feel in a while and I realize there's no sense in being afraid
Because whether I knew it or not I've already fallen completely and you already caught me.
I like being with you more than you know
Sometimes I feel like
It's good to have this kind of life,
And feelings that don't cut like a knife;
It's better when you don't text me,
It's better when I just live for me.
But there are also times
When I remember those nights,
And those daydreaming flights;
When all I cared for was you,
When all I craved for was you.
and I never again felt the same.
Its been two years already
Didn't hear a word from you baby
Think we're good at ghosting each other
Or why wouldn't we hang out together?
Feels like there wasn't even a thing
Like all I felt or said went into nothing
How did all these moments just fade away?
Like it had never even existed?
It felt so real felt so lit
Little did I know
That it wasn't it
When did I stop trusting you?
I didn't even notice it.
When did I stop listening,
start thinking you were full of it?
Convinced I'd heard it all before,
read all the writing on the wall.
I'd smile, and nod, then close the door.
I won't believe you anymore.
Why did I stop trusting you?
I never even wanted to.
The sky, it just turned inside out
when I first lent my ear to doubt.
'Full of it' is an English phrase which means full of **** btw
Why did you hurt me
I thought we were in love
I guess we didn't fit well.....
Like a glove, I love you still..
I always will, I'll be here for you
Will you be here to?
I'll be watching over you..
Just like your mama told me to,
I'd never let anything bad happen to you...
Well cause I love you boo<3