A mere meat, I am
In your eyes
I see hunger, thirst
Fooling around
For flesh, for satisfaction

You basked in my youth
Slowly stripping me
Not only of my covers
But also of my innocence
The thing I treasured most

And how naive I was
Allowing you full rein
On everything I held dear
My heart, most especially
Even if you did not want it

And now, I am devastated
Utterly destroyed
More broken than I had been before
Always asking myself
Who am I? Who was I before?
Innocent no more

You are everything
I love you as you are
No buts, no ifs
I love every flaw you have

I fell in love with your mind
With the sweet words
That emanated from your lovely lips
The lips that mine have come to know

I fell in love with your dreams
The way you tell stories
Tales from your childhood
And how your past relates to your future

But you didn't tell me
How you wanted the present to be
It was just past and future to you
And I can't recall you mentioning my name
In your tales of the past and in your hopes for the future

I am nothing to you
You are nothing to me
We just keep each other company
Til the day we see clearly

You never remember
Love, when it's gone
But what if
It's not yet gone
At least for you

If only there were
An alternate world
I would gladly give anything
To witness the beauty of it

An alternate world
An alternate You, an alternate Me
Where the alternate You
Falls for the alternate Me

Where the alternate You
Loves the alternate Me
Until it hurts, until it breaks you
And I'll be here, happy and complete

What makes it hard
Is that there is no measurement
No symptom, no signpost
To tell love apart from others

In the end
Love depends on one's self
We claim we are in love
We decide when we are in love

I forgot the Me
I was before

I forgot the way
I've lived before

I forgot the things
I've steered clear of

I forgot the monotone
I've been in

But why can't I forget
The way you placed your sweet lips upon me?

Why can't I forget
The way your beautiful mind functions?

Why can't I forget
The butterflies I felt when you held me?

Why can't I forget
Our deeper-meaning-of-life conversations?

Why can't I forget
Your face, your smile, your laugh?

Why can't I forget
*You?

I fell in love
I thought I would never say
These words which used
To mean nothing to me

But they did
They meant the world to me
And so did you
I fell in love with you

I fell in love
Sweet and painful
A moon in a dark night
Lost without it

But you didn't
I was a mere lamppost
Not a moon, not a star
And you were just passing by

I fell in love
Sensible yet stupid
You never know why or how
You just know when

Strangers, we were
Strangers, we are
But in between those two
Were we something more?

I fell in love*
I wish I hadn't
But if I hadn't
I would've never known you

Is it possible
To see through your heart
To read your mind
To know what you feel
To understand your pain
And why you inflict it upon others
Upon me
A naive, little child
Wandering in the woods
Wondering what went wrong
And how I let everything become worse
Become waste
A dull life I've lead
Contented on breathing and eating
Surviving on few discourses
With the few I know
Then, there was you
A mystery, a puzzle
I was me for the first time
A Me that hid under red cheeks
A mistake, a regret
I would've gladly opened my heart
Instead, I opened my lips
Without you knowing how I feel
Thinking it was just a physical need
But it wasn't
It was an emotional one

*I was emotionally attached to you
And to everything you say and do

How can one kiss
How can one day
Break open the sky

A new light, a new life
How you've kept yourself
Hidden, broken

Shut out from the rest
A feeling of isolation
You thought you loved so

But could it be worse?
Could you have had it any other way?
Could everything be nothing?

Could you keep pretending
Not to care, unable to feel
A tiny bit of love and love-ache

A kiss can mean a thousand things
And it could mean nothing at all

Company, I longed for
Loneliness surged upon me

Two beings a few inches away
Embraces and caresses

You placed your lips upon me
As I placed my utter faith in you

A wave of something indescribable
Rushed upon my insides

I felt it, hoping you did, too
Never have I been so mistaken

Lost myself in all of it
What a fool I had become

Why did I have to kiss you
With my eyes fully closed?

What do you do when you don't know what to do?

When you feel too much sadness,
That you can't feel anything anymore
When you feel too much weight on your shoulders,
That you can't feel the weight anymore

When you cry too much at night,
That you can't see anything anymore,
When you talk to yourself too much everyday,
That you can't voice out your thoughts anymore

What do you do when you don't know what to do?
Do you find answers or do the answers find you?

Solitary, lonely and sad
Oh, how you resemble the moon
Flawed and imperfect
With all the craters and the holes

But like the moon
Many would go to great heights
To see your beauty
A sightliness worth every step

Like the dear moon we see
You are blemished
And like the moon, my sweet lover
You shine in times of darkness

Sweet words, sour feel
Fine men, ill heart
Golden suits, rusty hearts
High end, low life

Tall structure, short span
Light skin, dark ways
Warm sweater, cold chest
Long lies, short lives

As the sun illuminates
Our skin, we light up
As the darkness brings us
To slumber, we dream

And in between those two
We stand on the fine line
Between dreams and reality
Between truth and how we want it to be

Breathing the same air
Staring at the same sky
Yet standing on different lands

I find solitude in the desolation
You ease upon the thought of separation
Yet we cannot find peace in our hearts

Knowing full well we have only time
To wait and words to bottle up
Two oceans between two bodies
Yet we can never scream without being heard