As I sit and ponder my path,
I understand why I went through
the darkness.

As I sit and observe the vast sky,
I understand why I fall in love
with the awe-inspiring beauty.

As I sit and listen to my heart,
I understand why I didn't believe
in love.

As I sit and reflect,
I understand my life's journey,
the lessons, and myself.

I am sandwiched
like a slice of ham

between
two pieces of Wonder bread

measurement
and judgment

you measure my intellect
by my words

yes
they are simple

you judge me
by my clothes

yes
they are threadbare

but please don't judge me
any further

or measure

until you try me
with mustard and Mayonaise

When he touched me,
Sunshine of joy oozed from my heart,
And the stars seemed to waltz around goosebumps on my skin.
14/3/2022

and then i realized
only medication or temporary rushes from substances would relieve the pain
the pain of living,
the suffocation of being trapped in a body i feel like i don't belong in
the never ending cycle of anxiety

and so i cried
and i cried so hard until i couldn't breathe
knowing there would never truly be an escape to this thing called life