my life - Hello Poetry

Jul 2014

calpurnia mockingbird

Lay with me but love me not
do not risk yourself for me,
words of warning grace my arm
my nature true,
worn banner proud.
I am too many broken pieces to carry,
torn asunder
at the mercy of a cyclone mind.
My heart's key long banished
by one who walks at night
though never returns.
I will never be anything
but destruction.
Lay with me but love me not
Do not risk yourself for me.

Jun 2014

Marsya Azzahra

Am I brave enough to tell you that I love you?

Am I brave enough to tell you?
to tell you that I like the way you smile
to tell you that I miss the way you laugh
to tell you that I love the way you say my name

Am I brave enough to tell you?
to tell you that I like your hair down your shoulders
to tell you that I miss the way you curse over stuffs
to tell you that I love the way you roll my chair back to you

Am I brave enough to tell you?
to tell you how I like the heart-shaped crumble of papers you gave to me
to tell you how I miss the way we took pictures of us together
to tell you how I love the way you say few words from your mouth

Am I brave enough to tell you?
to tell you what's been happening in my world
to tell you what am I up to
to tell you what's inside my head even when you're not around

Am I brave enough to tell you?
to tell you how I love the way you smell in your green BVLGARI perfume
to tell you how I love the way your Levi's jacket fits my body
to tell you how I love the way you look in your dark grey Nike glasses

Am I brave enough to tell you?
to tell you that the door of my heart is open
to tell you that I am right here,waiting for the day for you to come
and lock it up so everybody else will get locked out

Am I brave enough to tell you that I love you?

*Darling, tell me if I brave enough to tell you that I love you.

H.

#love #heartbreak #friendship #smile #heartbroken #unrequited #laugh #college #bestfriend #youngadult

Jun 2014

Miss Kiss My Bliss

Does he LIKE ME like me?

I swear he flirts back with me
More than anyone ever has
But does he like me like that?
I do not know, I am such a spaz
How do I know if he LIKES ME likes me?
I am in trouble because he excites me
I hope he LIKES ME likes me

Jun 2014

Camellia-Japonica

Have you ever....

Have you ever felt alone in a crowd?
Have you ever wanted it to be quiet, when it's loud?
Have you ever felt a stare, only to find no-one there?
Have you ever wanted to find out that the truth is a lie?
Have you ever wanted just to die?
Have you ever wanted to disappear never to return?
Have you ever felt a person's concern?
Have you ever felt the need to confirm your worth?
Have you ever felt circumstantial?
Excess to requirement?
Devoid of refinement?
At times this need within gets loose,
its box devoid of empathy and feeling
it leaves you reeling, freewheeling into nothing but oblivion*.

© JLB
23/06/2014

#feelings #despair

Jun 2014

Marsya Azzahra

I do. You don't.

"Hi,
A week has gone and I miss you."

What?
"I miss you, yes I do."

Who?
"It's you. You've heard me."

How?
"Think I miss the warmth of your presence, yes I do."

Why?
"Can't seem to let a day pass without talking to you.
I love the way you do.
I love you."

When?
"Yesterday. Now. Tomorrow."

Where?
"Anywhere. I'll still be loving you."

"Think I know I do.
Think I know you don't."

"Think I know I love you.
Think I know you love me not."

Yet.

H.

#love #friends #romance #girls #miss #distance #bestfriends #unrequitedlove #youngadult #schoolbreak

Jun 2014

Caitlin Tuminello

I have this fear of oceans, you see.

I thought I could trust in you enough to reach for you as I was drowning.
I was foolish to think you were my life raft
when you were the undercurrent that kept pulling me down.
Farther and farther out I went
into this open sea of vulnerability and naivety.
I was hopelessly engulfed in this idea of who I wanted you to be.
I romanticized you and every word that spilled from your mouth.
So much that your lies were salt water in my open wounds
and I let myself believe they were the stitches.

Jun 2014

Destiny

Home in your words

you were one of the few
people in my life that I
trusted
I put my faith in you
I let you inside my world
I let you explore places in my
mind
that no other person has explored before
you got inside my head
and you made yourself at home
and I didn't mind
not at all
because you accepted me
for who I really was
no judgment
no negativity
just support
you didn't just accept my flaws
you saw my flaws as just another reason to love me
you didn't even see flaws
you saw beauty
you put in effort
more effort than anyone has ever put into me before
you found the darkest places in my soul
you found darkness I didn't even know existed
and filled them with love
you emptied out the capsule that held
my darkest secrets
my shame
my hatred
and every little negative thing I was keeping inside of me
you took all of my burdens away
you made me feel free
for the first time in my life
you made me feel comfortable
you made me feel at home
you took the ribbons that I had lathered around my body
and unraveled them
slowly
patiently
with a smile on your face
you showed me who I really was
I'll never be able to repay you
but I promise to love you forever
and just know that without you
I never would have found my true happiness
because of you
I can go anywhere in the world
and know who I am
and know that I am at
home

#love #home #happy #happiness #real

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