Life is lonely without you by my side
Solitude is too hard to bear
Haven't heard from you in a week
Breaks my heart that you don't care

To spend one more day with you
When you were still head over heels
Would gladly make any sacrifice
But the devil is fresh out of deals

With desperation on breath
Questions on my mind
Beg the universe for answers
To explain why you left me behind

Who is there to ask except you?
Silence selfish solution
Noble effort is wasted in vain
Sees no resolution

**** air right out of my lungs
I choke on the emptiness
Indifference is a vacuum
Swallowing happiness

Out of methods to trick myself
Truth I'm scared to face
Cannot wrap my mind around it
I am so easy to replace

You fooled me a second time
The blame lies not on you
On my own naivety
Believing promises were true

Short-lived
Still so significant
The words sincerely spoken
They serve as evidence to proof
Loving you will leave me broken

People warned to stay away
You were nothing but trouble
My untainted innocence wondered
"Could anything bad be so warm when we snuggle?"

Adoration used to exist in our smiles
Lately it isn't found where it should be
Could forever for you end so soon?
An eternity would not be enough for me

I am half a person now
You were the greatest part of me
Seems like all I have are broken things
In place of where your love used to be

You made life a whole lot better
Then you left and took bliss away
Showed me what a blue sky was
Of course good things can never stay

You were the person who kept me happy
With you believed that I could be strong
Told me that I was beautiful
I'm starting to think that you were wrong

I still feel your gentle touch
Picture the hazel eyes I adore
Memories will only last
Until I cannot hold on anymore

Too much of myself has been broken
Cannot be who I was back then
Fear that I am too ugly now
For you to love me ever again

The man
who kept
his emotions
at bay
drowned
in them
all
one
winters
day

got into a car accident with fear.
it paralyzed me from the heart down.
i only go through the motions, i can barely feel.
it took control and now i can’t  help but,
being scared to approach anything around.
for fear of paralyzing someone from the heart,
all the way down.

Why would i choose to stand
to fight
when im sure that the weight
that will not stop tugging at my sleeve
the weight of existing
would feel so much better
if i let it drag me to the ground
and pull me beneath the earth
let me be heavy
let me give up
let me end

tears
are the ink
for the pen
a poet uses
to write