I never forgave you
Because you lied from the beginning
And then I tried to forgive
-- but instead I resisted
And made all of my decisions out of spite

And now I still can't forgive you
For all the things you've done
You're the reason for these scars
And the woman I've become
I never needed you
But wanted you so bad
Until I realized:
Life's worth more than what you have...
Life's worth more than what we had.

Eulogy to Relationships:

Worshipped at the altar
In this
Private temple of sadness
Is a pocket full of sorry
And rainchecks, so grab
The raincoat, and try
To keep dry
In the metallic storm
And stardust of memory;

Stellar winds blow
And eons pass,
I am somewhere there. Particles
so ancient, I am made in the siblings of meloncholia and moons,
And our sun--Assembled into something human,
Something capable of

LOVE

Yet we still keep medusa on the mantle.
Yet we still scavange through the pasts' bones.
Erecting our great mausoleums to the slain tigers
And our own
beast of burden,

And what good is writing poetry in it all
If it
At the very least
Didnt feel good
To elevate the benign and still neglected moments
To a status
Of art.

Tell me
How long until
My hands unfeel
Yours in mine
How long until
My eyes unsee
Your blue eyes
How long until
My ears unhear
the sound of your voice
How long until
My heart unloves
A relentless love?

shattered dreams
and infringed vows
left alone
with a broken heart

swollen eyes
and tongue tied
all the tears I’ve cried
my tormented agony

Days are filled
with sorrow and pain
sleepless nights
and a distressed mind

will this be the end?
of a fragment herald
and if you are to love,
love me with a broken heart.

Where my heart was
There is an empty space
I leave it that way
Just in case
I find one
To replace
The one you stole
From me

Look me in the eye
Look at my face
This is a condition
Only you can erase

Give back my heart
You broke it apart
Now let your love
Be the glue

To start the repair
Then put it back where
The empty space
Holds its place

Without it I am empty
Without you I am empty
I’m holding a space
For you

A heart was lost
held captive to dreams
full of sweetness.
woke with a smile
for days, weeks, months
a year and more.
to a day here or there,
to nothing as before.
a heart once sated simply
by smooth tones
laced with sensuous visions
transformed into longing
for a renewed friendship,
fueled now with joy and love.
distance created an awkward quiet
sense of used. yet,
we are missed
this known by He
who allowed our time.
time to hurt
until love is renewed again.
a heart knows
love cannot transfer
Nor erase.
mature infinite love
will not submit to complication.
this true love
is full of hope
enough to have overwhelmed
one feeble soul.
Love is often forsaken
by immature hearts.
we know,
pure love overflows from ours.
There is silence,
There is lost time
with much space between.
nevertheless,
a heart is lost no more.
for she is safe now,
there,
deep within yours