I'm a Disappointment.
I'm an Eventual ****-up.
I'm an utter *******.
I'm not Dead.
Yet.

When I'm feeling lame
When things just aren't the same

When I want to die
Or just want to cry

Close my eyes tight
Try to make it through the night

Her world is crashing
Down, down
All around her
She cries out
Time to release
All the pain
All the fear
Nowhere to go
No one to care
Tired of fighting
She ceases struggle
The battle's lost
Lights dim
Thoughts fade
A faint smile rests upon her lips
A rare pleasure...
Overridden by hope lost
And countless tears
Now she may rest
Yes, now you may rest Girl
Peace at last
Your wish come true
Cry no more, don't speak
Sleep, sleep...

What would this world be
If everyone had a mind like me

Shadows cover me
What you get isn't what you see
Deny your guilt
You make me sick
How do I deal
Begging for truth
Hide behind your shame
How dare you cause me so much pain
It's your deceit that's killing me
Don't you see
Your TRUTH will set me free

You asked me to fly with you
To the moon and back
I took your hand and away we went
Laughter between us, in this galaxy of hate
Don't let me keep you
I'll return soon
But not until I've had some fun
That feeling in me
So carefree
I want to stay forever
In this dreamy condition
But it's time to come down
Back where I belong
The agony of return
Memories, thoughts, and actions
They bind me like chains
Oh these chains!
They wrap around me
Digging into my skin
The ache
The burning
This society...
is poison.
The venom goes right through me
I am sick weak, and dull
I can't find my body now
I've decided to leave again
To the moon I go
This time I'm going alone
Oh how I wish I could...
Yeah, I'm going to have my fun
And when I'm done they'll tell you,
She's gone for good.

Scattered
All around
The pieces lay
Leaving me broken
My mind is confined
Braids of bitter suffering
Entwine
Entwine
Carving relentlessly deeper
A catch in my throat
Suddenly I'm drowning
This sea of sorrow has no mercy
Caught in it's wrath
Alone I weep
Myself I have forsaken
Who but I can procure the peace that eludes me
For me such emotions are delicate and fleeting
I wish to embrace my inherent delight
Like a lost treasure it remains unfound, yet greatly desired
It must be there, somewhere
Buried far beneath
Hope has not failed this quest
Radiant with light
Just waiting to be found
The pursuit to shine though the lurid gloom
Familiar with the burden
I will remain sanguine
Perhaps one day I will come to find it
I will gladly yield to it
Where it was lost, the despair will take it's place
To be forever cast into profound nothingness
Only, it will not shine, as my delight does
For, it is the darkness in which my delight was consumed

These shackles bind me ever tighter
How far can I go
Trying to get higher
Can't get with the flow
I'm getting tired  
No control
This is old
Where do I go?
Can anyone help me?  
Can anyone see?          
I want to break free
This fog has me trapped    
I can see the light, but it's just beyond me            
The path isn't mapped
Someone guide this lost soul
Don't want to fall deeper into this hole

If I had to choose
I would choose you
In you're warm embrace
Is where I fall from grace
Take me far away
On a dark holiday
You've been my pleasure
My struggle
My pain
For all I have lost
What have I to gain
Now it's time to let you go
My friend
My foe
This secret I hold within
You're my deepest sin

The ground crumbling beneath me
Screaming into the abyss
Siphoning my soul
Bleeding the life from me
The sun sets
A new dawn rises
Louder than ever
Death declares my morose