I pushed you away,
you were supposed to
know why,
you were supposed to
know me.
I pushed you away,
because
i was afraid,
of my feelings
and the fact
that i became
so dependent
on you
for my happiness,
you were responsible
for everything
i felt inside,
that terrified me.
You knew too much,
you knew me too well.
I was afraid
of losing you,
getting hurt.
Guilt consumed me
and i went back
and it was
the best decision
i've ever made,
until...
but now you left.
You're gone,
and i'm hurt
and i don't know how
not to blame myself.
I am sorry.