Today was goodbye
It feels different this time
Before
I knew you'd be back
Now
I think you might stay away
And I'm not sure
Where that leaves us
But I'm broken
As we fought
It bruised me deep
Cut my heart
Made me weep
And now I lie here
Wishing to go back
Take away the pain
Of watching you pack
I'll see you again
Maybe not now
But this isn't the end
It was just
See you soon
Words I should've said
It's done and over now
You're my best friend
We'll be okay some how
And maybe
When we meet again
We will realize why
Neither of us is very good
At saying goodbye

I just...
I just need someone to hold me while I cry
     My emotions seem to be at an all time high
Why do I feel this way
     Like a storm in the middle of the day
All of a sudden it hits
     The sadness sends me into these fits
Waves of tears crash
     As the feeling of loneliness spreads like a rash
I'm feeling empty and numb
     This depression has me in a slum
Yet this all feels for nothing
     This pain is not for one thing
It's constant and deep
     Only to subside and retreat
Left rattled with a dull ache
     Maybe admitting the pain was my mistake
I stayed strong for so long
     And now the emotion flows like some song
It cannot be played for the weak at heart
     If they are whole, it will make them fall apart
These pains
     Emotions
No gains
     Just notions
That one day you'll be okay
     Soon the pain won't stay
Let it ache until then
     I just
*Wait

Darkness year round,
            I see words,
                   but never hear their sound.

Were you calling out to me?
           I couldn't hear over the static,
                    I'm consumed within.
I can feel the darkness,
          *do I let it win?

I push you away,
so you'll pull me closer
I get upset ,
so you'll cheer me up
I get mad,
but I always forgive you
I want your attention,
though I'll never ask
I just want to be the exception