I get it now
I understand
I know what they meant by their cheeks hurting and their stomach twisting.
I know what they meant by longing to be with him, just for one more minute
and another
and another.
I get it now
I understand
I know why they always look longingly at their phones, awaiting another text
I know why they sigh deeply just by looking at his photos
going through
one by one.
I get it now
I understand
I know what it's like to be in love
and to fall in love
over and over again
every day.

Hello

you don't know me
but I'm the ******* the other end of his phone.
The one nervously waiting for him to text me that he's back home
saying that he had a good time but was glad to be in bed.
I'm the one who holds him when he has a bad day
the one who reassures him that I'll always love him
the one who fell head over heels for him
for his weird quirky dorky nerdy self.
That's me.
Please don't take him away from me,

please.

Signed,
Me

Please don't worry about him,
he'll be fine.
He's gonna go and have fun and he'll be safe, I promise.
He's not gonna go off and see someone else,
he's not planning to cheat on you
he's not gonna let alcohol and some girl
take away what you two have.
Please don't worry
I know it's hard but you've got to accept it.
Nothing you do,
whether it's countless hours spent worrying
or nervously asking him if he still loves you,
none of it would change anything.
Just because you worry,
just because you ask,
if he is a cheater,
he's going to cheat, regardless of what you do.
So be happy.
Please be happy and please don't worry.
Smile and know that he's thinking about you every now and then,
smile and know that he's also wishing your lips were together,
that you were side by side with your hands linked.
He knows you love him
now it's just time you know that
he loves you too.

There has yet to be a time when I'm not reminded of you
when I'm not thinking of you
when I'm not wishing I was with you.
There has yet to be a time when I've regretted being with you
when I've wished for a different scenario
when I've wanted something else.
There has yet to be a time when I could say,
I didn't love you.
Because every moment of every day
I see things that are you
that make me think of you
that make me feel like something's missing beside me.
Every moment of every day
I love being able to know I'm yours
and you are mine.
Every moment of every day
I fall in love with you more and more.
There has yet to be a moment when you mean the world to me
because every day,
you become my world over and over again.

Be loud and be proud
be quiet and keep to yourself
be upfront and demanding
be reserved and stay together
be beautiful and pretty
be hot and ****
be dainty and quaint
and rock the **** world.

Be you.
Be whoever you are comfortable being.

Don't let them tell you to shut up
don't let them tell you to talk more
don't let them tell you you're a *****
or that you're too nice.
Don't let them tell you you can't be beautiful, pretty, hot and **** **** all at once
because you know what?
You are.
Don't let them tell you to be rougher
don't let them tell you to be ladylike.

You are mother-effing lady
and you get to decide what that means.

I didn't know
that falling in love hurt so I
fell
      fell
            fell
                  fell
faster than one could blink.