with one blow I´m  falling to the ground
but he forces me to stand back up
and hits me again
i fall to the ground
and the cycle repeats

i screamed when he hit me
he laughed picked up a new object
hit me again
i cried
he laughed
pushed me  on the ground
kicked me
i stopped crying
he continued hitting
got bored
stopped hitting
whats funny is he only uses one hand
its amaazing what the damage of one hand can do

Every-time he hits me
Every-time he leaves a bruise
I feel like I´m losing it
I don´t cry
I don´t make a sound
I don´t say a word
not because I don want to
but because he seems to enjoy it more when i scream or cry

It's amazing what hands can do
they can cuddle you
they can comfort you
they can be used to love you
but hands can also be evil
they can be used to hurt you
they can create painful memories
and most of all,hands can leave bruises

They say everyone is different
but is that really true
it seems like i'm the only one who's really different
everything I say makes me seem crazy to everyone else
the way I dress doesn't seem to be normal to other people
and don't get me started on my thoughts
all my thoughts would get me sent to a mental hospital
is saying everyone is different
just a way oof making me normal

There's always a time where you have mixed feelings
that moment when you're both happy and sad
happy because you have really good friends and people who really care about you
but you can never be completely happy
because there's always that part of you that is sad
because there is one person in your life who doesn't seem to love you
that one person who tells you that they love you
but they seem to be the one that hurts you most
the person who swore they'd never let you fall
is the one who always pushes you down
he'll tell you that you're never good enough
though at one point he told you that you were always going be the best
he the person who leaves bruises and scars
though many times he promised you he'd never lay a hand on you

They say they hate thots
but get mad when you don't say yes to every man who asks
They say you should embrace your natural beauty
but only if ur not fat and have no flaws at you
they tell you its okay to be different
but tear you down as soon as you do something outside of the norms
They tell you everyone is important
but tell you that sometimes your just not good enough
They tell us that us women should defend ourselves
but as soon as we do we are labeled stupid feminists
They tell you that it not ok for a man to violate \you
but defend the men by saying you were asking for it because of what you wearing