This seems to be the phrase that controls my life
Why do I have to clean my room
Because I'm the adult and I said so
Why can't have this
because i'm the adult and i i don't want u to have it
why do you hit me
because i'm the adult
why do you always leave bruises and scars on me
because i'm the adult and i felt like it

He's just a  boy
I'm just a girl
He's in love
I'm in love
But I'm in love with him
And he's in love with someone else
he happily in a relationship
and i fantasize a relationship between us

There's always a time where you have mixed feelings
that moment when you're both happy and sad
happy because you have really good friends and people who really care about you
but you can never be completely happy
because there's always that part of you that is sad
because there is one person in your life who doesn't seem to love you
that one person who tells you that they love you
but they seem to be the one that hurts you most
the person who swore they'd never let you fall
is the one who always pushes you down
he'll tell you that you're never good enough
though at one point he told you that you were always going be the best
he the person who leaves bruises and scars
though many times he promised you he'd never lay a hand on you

You know that moment when your scared of something
even though you know that its coming
when your scared of the pain
even though its the same pain you experience everyday
even though your not as scared as used to be
you realize that even though your scared
you are strong enough to face the pain
you realize you are stronger than the person who inflicting the pain on you
because you realize that some day you will get away from that person
or one day that person will finally realize they you
you'll be long gone and they will be by themselves
they won't be able to release their anger and pain on you
one day they will fall down hard
and they will realize the person who was always there to catch them isn't there
when they are really angry and need a puching bag
they'll have to find someone else
because you will be too far away or too big for them to come to you.

She stared at me
   I wondered what she was thinking about me
    soon enough I figured out  her thoughts
    she saw the pain in my eyes
   and her only thought was who hurt you
    who made you doubt yourself
    who made you cry
    and most important  of all who made you believe your life has no purpose
    but only I will know the answer

He can see the fear in my eyes
  though I try not to show it
  it only makes him more aggressive
  it only makes him hit harder
  it only makes the bruises on my legs get darker
  but I smile through the pain
  and I laugh inside my head
  because I know sometime, somewhere  karma’s gonna catch up to him
one day something is going to hurt him as badly as he hurts me.