In the end-
You're still worth it. You are still worth it
wished I could give you the comfort you seek

Please forget me, and **** me in your thoughts
for I am the disaster you've brought
Please forgive me, for I shattered you with words

I'm sorry
If I couldn't love you on the days I couldn't love
and for the nights I couldn't love myself
I guess that's how it really is, that love
Love cannot be given if love is not felt

take care.

I fear the day when I no longer know
the feeling of bliss when you are rewarded
the feeling of frustration when you fail
the strong emotions that make me feel human
making me feel alive, telling that I exist

I fear the day when I no longer know
the feelings captured in my memories
the memories I vividly remember,
the memories that I always try to hide under
I fear the day when the past doesn't bring
the joy or pain that is fabricated
kept in my thoughts, to never be reached

I fear the day when I no longer know
the feelings I felt when I think of the future
the ecstasy that the hope brings
the dread that the anxiety sets
I fear the moment I no longer look forward
to what tomorrow might bring

in this starry night
where the moon's nowhere to be found
the glitters in the space brightens
and in these specks of stardust
each containing a soul, a dream
wishes waiting to be fulfilled
they burn, worth a several lifetime
a significance, that the promises
tied in your fate, will be done
maybe in another timeline, different life

in the eyes of the dreaming
this night sky contains the hopes
of different beings looking
on that same night sky, filled with
stars shining on a dark space
they all find peace in the meaning
there is light in the dark
and that no matter how dim it is
it's still dazzling, its beauty perpetual
the dreaming once again prepares
maybe in another night
the dreams will be done

how wonderful it is
for your soul to be touched with love
the gentle, kind, and compassionate

forever gently touched
may your soul be a kindling fire
faithfully loved, eternally burning

Self love will always be
And will always be a struggle
It's the constant acceptance
Of you lacking, of your own flaws
It's the dissonance between
Settling for what's in store or
Trying to see what's for more

Self love is about
Answering the screams you hear
Inside your head once everything
Has settled and calmed

Self love is about
Addressing your fears, of what is
Keeping you awake at night

Self love is about
Letting your tears fall, letting your
Emotions take over every while
For self love is not about sparkles
For it is dark, painful, and tiring

It's hard, isn't it

"love is about commitment"
'then why did you leave?'

love is about commitment
but like other things, love
changes, in an instant
one moment love is blooming
one moment love is dying

and a dying love cannot commit
and a dying love cannot promise
and a dying love cannot stay

It is a lie when they told that there's nothing to lose
If someone hadn't loved you back
Never they had realized that heartbreaks happen too
when you lose your chance to make someone fall for you