To think

That in the end

We were

Almost

Reconciled

The stars
are just
night time
riptides.

They pull you deeper
and deeper
into the night sky,
until
you're 30 miles in,
and not looking for home.

when i fall,
i don't just fall in love.
clumsily, i stumble
down and then i land

awkwardly and graceless,
stuttering utterly at the foot
of a handsome man,

blundering an apology
out of breath, ineptly
embarrassed about
my shaky hands,

clambering
to dust myself off,
all the while, i try,
desperately, to stand

wishing i could disappear,
i rise as quickly as i can
waving off any helping hand

so he doesn't see
how incredibly stupid
i must be

Tear apart
paper hearts

sunny rain
****** rainbows
and blue haze

stuck in box
can't push me out

sleeping
for months
waking up in October


nice talk
now we're back to ignoring each other

sensitive
lost my bottle of tears
I cared for myself
I never noticed you were here