Sitting on the floor
in a dark pitch room
curled up in a corner
spining her cocoon
blocking out the world
feeling so safe
to get her walls up early
she picked up new pace
once the work was done
she let out a sigh
they were the harsh words
that made her to keep the walls high!!

And sometimes i wish
to hide
to fade
or just to evaporate
leaving behind
no trace...

I picked up my pen
deciding to write,
an autumn poem,
cause it feels so right

staring on page
i thought and thought
failing badly cause
the words were lost

the words that were left
were all brown and red
i checked for ideas
they were already dead

i asked my mind
to give me a reason
he simply said
its the autumn season !!

Standing all alone ...
in the middle of a dark day ...
feeling nothing but, ...
a bit grey ...
Watching the colors ...
as they fade away ...
mind full of words ...
but left with nothing to say ...
loosing the silver lining ...
her eyes were about to cry ...
fighting with her mind ...
the heart begged ...
GIVE IT A TRY!! ...
her lips fluttered ...
as she was falling grey ...
running out of time ...
her only option was to pray ...
Prayer whispered ...
listened ...
& answered ...
Feeling blessed ...
she found a new way ...
as now it was a colorful bright
day !!

I feel that I'm not only use to the pain

But I am addicted to it as well, obsessed

Because I don't know a different way
I don't know how to live without it 

How lost I would be if the pain just went away

Giving up on real world
she decided to fade
starting a new journey
with a hope to find him
in a realm of possibilities !!