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Sep 2022 · 175
Your name
I
am a silent masturbator.
I don't moan,
or groan,
or whisper;
I set to work,
and as quickly as it begins, it is over -
as if it never happened at all:
A tree falling in an empty forest.
but yesterday
When we talked outside
and the midday sun
hit your eyes,
Covering those glossy dots of paint in a thin layer of honey,
and warming a gentle smile,
I fell in love with you.
Tonight,
when I touched myself,
I was still silent.
but I couldn't help but think of you;
of burying myself
Into that beautiful body of yours,
of holding you
So close you begin to wonder if I will ever let go,
of filling you
With some sticky, liquid testament to this unreciprocated love;
and as I ******,
I lose myself
and Your name slips my lips.
The silence is broken.
I don't know if it can be fixed.
Baby boy!
Pretty little thing,
your flesh
is So divine!
Oh yeah,
that's right;
I like to watch it -
i like to watch your flesh:
subcutaneous fat
padding tender hips
Shifting on a creaky framework of bones.
So beautiful,
so divine,
so delicious -
I will have you for my own, Straight Boy,
I will eat you,
piece
by
Piece.
First,
your liver,
then,
your Brain,
and finally,
I will devour your confused little heart;
I will bite through the muscle;
and you will watch on
as Blood that pumped
through a brain that pushed away thoughts of hesitant homoeroticism,
and a ***** that rose
For me - INCUBUS!!! -
dribbles down my chin...
lifeless!
Mar 2022 · 137
wrong
i feel so very tired
i think my body is beginning to rot
from the inside out
something is wrong
Mar 2022 · 127
absence
i think there's something wrong with me
i feel depressed and tired of interaction
but i dont want to go out with a ***** of a candle,
unnoticed.
i want my suicide to be my final piece of work
i want my absence to be art
We start as one.
We grow from the same wretched earth,
but eventually,
we begin to abandon the physiological Pangea
in which all our bodies are blurred at the edges,
And we grow independent.
Eventually, though,
each and every one of us
becomes tired.
We lay down to rest,
and our dura mater begins to decompose,
leaving our brain to slip free,
our consciousness to traverse the planes we left behind at birth.
Oct 2021 · 127
ARGH, okay
FILTHY DIRT
nestling between my toes
AND EATING ME
while I sit and wait
FOR YOU, YOU *******
to come back in your usual manner
AND BEAT ME UP
and watch me cry warm,
SALTY ******* TEARS.
...
ARGH!
Okay.
Jul 2021 · 171
Ripe
The beast ambles,
Slowly
Against the face of the cold,
Encroaching
Winter.
He pauses,
milky eyes turned upwards,
two pools of white
in which a pale,
smoldering
sky can be seen, reflected
like narcissist unto photo behind glassy frame.
He turns back,
Away from the cold,
And the howling, ashen sky
Towards home,
And orchard of writhing, wild apple.
Inside, it is warm.
He will wait out the winter,
perched in patched armchair,
ambling the slender halls,
wearing thin the lacquer,
on what may have once been
Glossy,
Youthful,
timber floor -
Growing fat off the fruit of autumn.
May 2021 · 167
Untitled
𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑖𝑐𝑘.
I know,
But does my sickness
Eat me from the inside?
Does it,
Define me?
...
Yes.
Very much.
What are you going to do about it?
May 2021 · 403
the sallow
Beneath the sallow,
At break of the night
He waits,
The moonlight dusted upon his pale
Fickle
Skin
Periodically, of course
For no longer than a second
Does the mark of silvery light
Linger in one place,
Most of it pushed aside
By the gambolling tears of green
Wept by the weathered
Old
Sallow’s skeleton grown up into the sky.
For context, a sallow is a weeping willow. Considering the other meaning of the word, I thought that made it even more dreary of a tree. The poem has nothing to do with this, I was just bored.
Jun 2020 · 128
gun
gun
what would it be like
to press a gun to my head?
to have silvery cold bring forth
flashes of my life-
but what life would I remember?
what hate-filled, spite-ridden hours would present themselves?
what mediocrity would I be met with?
and why would I not pull the trigger?
Jun 2020 · 133
things that rhyme
things that rhyme
strawberry time
ring like a chime
cry like two eyes
raw delight
strawberry night
left is right
no surprise
imagine this
strawberry fist
pink abyss
barn dance for flies
legs in mesh
strawberry flesh
corpse's creche
How unwise.
death comes certainly to the door when man knocks where he is unwanted.
Jun 2020 · 123
bedroom megalomaniac
The fear
in the eyes of the weak
cavorts As if
it was the light Of a slowly
Melting candle
cast Against a wall,
ropes Tug gently
and the Bedroom Megalomaniac
Waits patiently
for the Deer
to collapse.
Apr 2020 · 95
milk man
i am the milk man
my milk is delicious
Apr 2020 · 122
childhood home
tsss
karakarakara
tsss
karakarakara
...
an effeminate scent
of yellow petaled dancers on the breeze
And hot hot rice
too hot to touch
but cool enough to eat
...
tsss
karakarakara
tsss
karakarakara
...
Inhale
fade away
Exhale
today
i am remembering.
Child
Apr 2020 · 92
the tyrant
immeasurable,
in fear I would tremble--
but I looked him in his eye
and saw nothing more
nothing less
than man at gunpoint
.
Apr 2020 · 115
late winter
like a cold, heaving
beast
mind awakening
a collection of words spilled from mouth
Uncontrollable.
leaves dissipating underfoot
a race to the end of nothing
AND
I wait
and wait
but the turn of the air does not arrive
my lady
has been lost
to the heat
of the day.
Mar 2020 · 107
Poet asleep
Poet asleep,
Moonlight dancing on a face
Worn away by life.
The poet has smiled,
The poet loved-
The poet lost.
But until the beams of the sun illuminate motes of dust at the break of morn,
Poet sleeps,
Poet is one of us.
:-)
Feb 2020 · 87
Distant
Losing my humanity
As I drift further and further away from those I love.
Star smattered gazes lost
To the catatonic stares-
Hours and hours on end.
Am I alive?
Or am I just breathing?
Who am I?
Questions, filling my mind, drowning me in a sea of emotions I can't even begin to register,
A false god.
Built on a pedestal of lies.
A monument to the sins of mankind.
I am eternal-
But until the day I may be freed from this skin that binds me
I will walk among you
Growing distant
As my fate swallows me.
Dec 2019 · 171
Mother cow
Are you breathing, child?
Are you traipsing through the wild-
Barreling like a shadow through the city streets at night?

Are you alive, little one?
Are you feet carrying you for as long as you may run-
Do you weep like the moon at the rise of the sun?

Are you sleeping, sweetheart?
Are you staring at the sky with a wandering heart-
Will you grow old, will we be torn apart?

Are you here, child?
...
Are you here?
A mother cow watches her calf being taken from her.
Dec 2019 · 325
The beast on my bed
Furry beast; perched on my bed,
I ask him, why do you rush,
Why do you hurry as if your days are numbered?
He turns his head to me,
And with a heavy voice he speaks:
"Human, you are eternal,
But my pawprints will only live as long as I dare tread them."
A poem I wrote about my cat.
Dec 2019 · 126
The mountains.
Such a feeling
That I have
Inside me
When                                                        
I­                                                              
Th­ink
About you.
Like the howling wind
Rushing and wailing, but-
Peaceful in its own way,
Hurtling through the
Mountains, like
An oversized
Dog when
His man
Comes
Home
...
.
:-) Good vibes.
Dec 2019 · 508
☞The lover's haiku☜
┍━━━━━━━☟━━━━━━━┑
ˢᵒᶠᵗ ᶦˢ ᵗʰᵉ ⁿᶦᵍʰᵗ'ˢ ᵍʳᵃˢᵖ
ˢᵗᵃʳᵈᵘˢᵗ ᵖᵃᶦⁿᵗˢ ᵗʰᵉ ʷᵃˡˡˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ᶠˡᵒᵒʳ
ᵀʷᵒ ᵇᵒᵈᶦᵉˢ ᵉⁿᵗʷᶦⁿᵉᵈ.
┕━━━━━━━☝︎━━━━━━━┙
Sep 2019 · 269
he writes
alone,
he writes-
in the palm of their hands,
he writes-
loved by them
but not to be given love,
he writes-
dazed by the world,
he writes-
until the day his fragile feminine form may shed away,
she writes.
Aug 2019 · 2.5k
hanahaki haiku
ᶠˡᵒʷᵉʳˢ ᶦⁿˢᶦᵈᵉ ᵐᵉ
ᵃˢ ᵗᵒˣᶦᶜ ᵃˢ ᵗʰᵉʸ ᵐᵃʸ ᵇᵉ
ᴵ ʷᶦˡˡ ʷᵉˡᶜᵒᵐᵉ ᵗʰᵉᵐ
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Hanahaki is a fictional disease in which flowers grow in the lungs of a person who suffers from unrequited love.
Aug 2019 · 242
Sad man
ˢᵃᵈ ᵐᵃⁿ
ᴴᵃᵈ ᵃ ᶠᵃᶜᵉ
ᴸᶦᵏᵉ ᵍᶦⁿᵍᵉʳᵇʳᵉᵃᵈ ᶜᵒᵒᵏᶦᵉ ᵍᵒⁿᵉ ʷʳᵒⁿᵍ,
ᴴᵉ ʰᵃᵈ ᵐᵉˢˢʸ ᵍᵒˡᵈᵉⁿ ʰᵃᶦʳ
ᵀʰᵃᵗ ʷᵃˢ ˢᶜʳᵘᶠᶠʸ ᵃⁿᵈ ˡᵒⁿᵍ.
ᴵ ʷᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵖᵃˢˢ ʰᶦᵐ ᵉᵛᵉʳʸᵈᵃʸ
ᴼⁿ ᵐʸ ʷᵃʸ
ᵀᵒ ᵐʸ ˢᶜʰᵒᵒˡ⁻
ᴬⁿᵈ ʰᵉ'ᵈ ˡᵒᵒᵏ ᵃᵗ ᵐᵉ
ᵂᶦᵗʰ ʰᶦˢ ˢᵃᵈ ᵐᵃⁿ ᵉʸᵉˢ.
ˢᵃᵈ ᵐᵃⁿ
ᴬˢᵏᵉᵈ ᶠᵒʳ ᵐᵒⁿᵉʸ
ᴵ ˢᵃᶦᵈ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᴵ ʰᵃᵈ ⁿᵒⁿᵉ
ᴬ ᵐᵃⁿ ⁿᵉᵃʳᵇʸ ʸᵉˡˡᵉᵈ ᵃᵗ ʰᶦᵐ
ᴬⁿᵈ ʰᵉ ᵈᶦᵈ ᵃ ˢᵃᵈ ᵐᵃⁿ ʳᵘⁿ.
Aug 2019 · 371
Fickle, falter
ᶠᶦᶜᵏˡᵉ, ᶠᵃˡᵗᵉʳ
ᴾᵃʷˢ ᵒⁿ ʷᵃᵗᵉʳ
ᴳᵃᶻᵉ ᵈᵒʷⁿ ᵃᵗ ᵃ ʳᵉˢᵗˡᵉˢˢ ˢᵒᵘˡ
ᵂʰʸ ᵈᵒ ʸᵒᵘ ʷᵃⁿᵈᵉʳ?
ᵂʰʸ ᵈᵒ ʸᵒᵘ ᵗʳᵃᶦᵖˢᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ˡᵃⁿᵈ ᵃˢ ᶦᶠ ʸᵒᵘʳ ʳᵒᵒᵗˢ ᵉˣᵗᵉⁿᵈ ᵈᵒʷⁿ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵐᶦⁿᵍˡᵉ ʷᶦᵗʰ ᵗʰᵒˢᵉ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ᵗʳᵉᵉˢ?
ᵂʰʸ ᵈᵒᵉˢ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᶠᵃᶜᵉ ᵈʳᵒᵒᵖ ᵃˢ ᶦᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵏʸ ʷᵉʳᵉ ᵖᵘˡˡᶦⁿᵍ ᵈᵒʷⁿ ᵒⁿ ᶦᵗ?

ᴸᶦᵗᵗˡᵉ ᵇᶦʳᵈ,
ᴸᵒˢᵗ ᶦⁿ ᵃ ᶜᵒⁿᶠᵘˢᶦⁿᵍ ʷᵒʳˡᵈ
ʸᵒᵘ ˢᵗʳᵘᵍᵍˡᵉ ᵃˢ ᶦᶠ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵗʰᵒᵘᵍʰᵗˢ ᵇᶦⁿᵈ ʸᵒᵘ ˡᶦᵏᵉ ᶜʰᵃᶦⁿˢ
ʸᵒᵘ ᶠˡᵃᵖ ʸᵒᵘʳ ʷᶦⁿᵍˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗʳʸ ᵗᵒ ᶠˡʸ ᵃʷᵃʸ,
ᴮᵘᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ᶠᵃˡˡ ᵗᵒ ᵗʰᵉ ᵍʳᵒᵘⁿᵈ ʷᶦᵗʰ ᵗʰᵉ ʳᵃᶦⁿ.

ˢᶦⁿᵍ ᵃ ˢᵒⁿᵍ,
ᵀᵉˡˡ ᵐᵉ ʸᵒᵘʳ ˢᵗᵒʳʸ
ᴵⁿ ᵃ ᶜʰᵒʳᵘˢ ᵒᶠ ᵐᵘᶠᶠˡᵉᵈ ᶜʳᶦᵉˢ,
ᴮᵘʳʸ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵐᵘᶻᶻˡᵉ ᶦⁿᵗᵒ ᵐʸ ᶠᵘʳ
ᵁⁿᵈᵉʳ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵒᶠᵗ, ˢᵗᵃʳʳʸ, ⁿᶦᵍʰᵗ.

ᶠᶦᶜᵏˡᵉ, ᶠᵃˡᵗᵉʳ
ᴾᵃʷˢ ᵒⁿ ʷᵃᵗᵉʳ
ᶠᵃˡˡ ᶦⁿᵗᵒ ᵐʸ ᵃʳᵐˢ ᵃᵍᵃᶦⁿ.

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