How do you write a suicide note?
A story told too many times
Until its pages are worn thin
A world bleached of colour
How do you write a suicide note?
Open heavy eyes to empty darkness
Ominous feelings, like fabric
Weaving and coiling in my gut
How do you write a suicide note?
Hurl words like throwing knives
Breathing in water, suffocating on air
Masks, and shields are all the same thing
How do you write a suicide note?
Seized the key to the only door
Of escape from everything
A shadow of you watching, when I find it again
How do you write a suicide note?
The sounds of seagulls’ cries
Filling the air, we see, we breathe
We touch; I reach out for the waves only for them to pull back, sequester
How do you write a suicide note?
Figuring out that you are all the same
A dimming star in a galaxy of lights
And then realising that you were only an asteroid, drifting
How do you write a suicide note?
Missing of the fire we are all made of
The passion, desire that sets everything
Into blue-black flames, alive
How do you write a suicide note?
Millions of bombs, interconnected inside of you; living in an hourglass
The right hand of the clock is just spinning, and watching, waiting
For the scintillant of a match, plunging into gasoline
How do you write a suicide note?
The scattering petals in your heart, your mouth,
Your mind; roots connected to the cords of your lungs
Coughing flowers, the colour of the blood that leaks from your mouth
How do I write a suicide note?
So many words that I want to say, cascading from the tip of my pen
That tears the page in half
And the ink bleeds like I do, with the tears that plummet downwards, silent
Pull the trigger and then it is a thousand times more
Quieter, and stiller
Than it was before.
