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Nov 2017 athf

Elle H

I remember that night.
I drove to your friends house.
I walked to the garage to greet you.
You looked down at me with that smile of yours, god I loved it so much.
I looked you in the eyes and said I never loved you.
I lied.
I wanted to cry in front of you, but instead I walked away as you just looked.
I just hope you knew that I was lying.

#him #me #breaking #left #love

Nov 2017 athf

Necessities

Nov 2017 athf

Glueboi

Necessities

Hey there, it's me again.
Thanks for being there when I need you,
You are my moon, the Earth and my Sun
There'd be no me without you by my side
You and me, we're stuck together
You are my moon, the Earth and my Sun
You're with me through my darkest,
and have so many uses.
Please let me ask one thing of you
Hello glue, can I eat you?
or perhaps use you as ****?

I am the one glues.

#glue

Nov 2017 athf

handwriting

Nov 2017 athf

Angie S

handwriting

i wonder what your name
looks like in my handwriting
if i weren't as shy as i am
i would have overcrowded a notebook
just of the way your i's are dotted
what frightens me is that
your hands don't agonize over my name
don't at least motion the symbols in the air
much less write them
and i wonder what my name
looks like in your handwriting
if you curl the e the same i would curl yours
or if you bestow your personal touch upon it
either way it would look beautiful
i would adore any name you'd write for me

i wonder what your name
looks like in my handwriting
but honestly i worry that
i cannot do it justice

wrote this one in 5 minutes. i'm procrastinating and i'm stressed and insert more negative things here. worst of all, i am still chased by one thought, and i worry i cannot do anything about it.

i'm nervous to write it, but if i had to write just one thing for the rest of my life, it would be those letters that make up your name.

#love #romance #handwriting #shy #sadness #happiness #beauty

Nov 2017 athf

Love Remains Elusive

Nov 2017 athf

Pagan Paul

Love Remains Elusive

.
Links in the chemist chain
laced in a double helix
defy the laws of the universe,
and the atavistic resurgence
creates isotopes of dream passion.
     Elements conspire in panic
     with a symmetry of casual chaos
     that mimics an atomic bomb,
     destroying its own creator
     in a cruel parody of birth paradox.
          Arresting the Iris of Dissolution
          with cuffed anxiety drowning
          in a pond of helium ore,
          carelessly drifting on acid flesh,
          coagulating in a soup of memory.

And the paradigm shifts again,
reality unfocussed clears, strains,
revealing your shuddering form,
next to me, keeping me warm.
Lids flicker and you open your eyes,
shining, smiling in cute surprise.
Moving my finger up to my lips
whilst I gently untangle our hips.

     Do you remember this night?
     Last night, tonight, tomorrow night?
     Time begins to slowly rewind,
     on the night you blew my mind.

My essence is filled with your heart,
a love I have yet to discover.
Whilst you wander between the stars,
my universe starts to recover.

So please don't break this silence now.
Please don't shatter this moment long,
I want this post ****** memory to remain
in the morning when you have gone.

© Pagan Paul (04/11/17)

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#poetry #love #empty #loneliness

Nov 2017 athf

Spill

Nov 2017 athf

Uh-Lay-Knee

Spill

I've been trying to
make something of myself.
But when I look all I can find,
is the lives I've made up in my mind
Spilling out.

And I wonder,
If I never told a lie again,
Would I do better, at keeping my friends?
Or would I still drive them all away
Anyway,

Three years in and I stopped thinking,
A couple more and
it just spills out, people and places and things I've never
seen or done, but,
if everyone believes you is it true?

I was scared before but,
not anymore and,

That's why I cant decide on you
If you're true or real or know anything about me,
or if it's just another perception of me
Created as a fantasy, turned my reality.

#personal #lies #perception

Oct 2017 athf

Constellation

Oct 2017 athf

Atlantis

Constellation

I will re

a
      r
          r
             a
        n
    g
e

the  s  t  a  r  s

to spell out your

n    a     m    e

So the universe is aware

that you are

m    i     n    e

#star #constellation #love #romance #universe

Oct 2017 athf

Light

Oct 2017 athf

Atlantis

Light

People wonder
who killed
his lights

Saying he used to shine
brighter than the sun
and there were sparks
like those of the stars'

People wonder
who killed
his lights

But no one does

He turned it off

#light #sparks #shine #tired #life

Oct 2017 athf

untitled

Oct 2017 athf

hayami

untitled

falling in love is a feeling. being in love is a choice. there is such a stark difference between falling and being. you could fall in love with many people, but you can only be in love with one. falling in love… not exactly there yet. falling in love is a feeling. it could change overtime. the fall may be stopped. the fall may be continued until such time that falling would be turned into being. being in love is a continuous choice to be. to be… to exist… to stay in love.

to speak about love at such a detailed degree is simply astounding coming from someone who knows no love as strong as this personally.

#love