Three days, they
surrounded with weeping eyes
and sorrowful hearts
acting, as if
they empathize

  Three days...three days,
full with concerned phone calls,
condolences cards and
encouraging words,
"stay strong," they said,
"they're in a better place" and,
"you have an angel in Heaven now"

who cares...

I'd
rather them here
with me, thoughts ran through
my head

Three days...three days...three days  

of sharing memories
and  
promises of
'gone but never forgotten'

...then ****
like...
houdini's magic,
everyone was gone and
life went on

from my
point of view
I'm the only one  
missing you

I  
dare  
they  
be
joyous

amidst, my hell on earth
  
I  
watched
through eyes  
that cried endless tears
day and night and what seemed  
like in between
while they...
lived
laughed
and  
loved

No one
can truly understand
until someone soul-deep in their heart dies
and rips their life apart
  
I realize this, cause
I didn't, until...
I
lived  
it.

Silence is now a staring face in the darkness
She sits with me at full tables
And sings with me in the shower
We lie on damp gardens and look at rainy skies

She has been a loyal companion on car rides
And on trips to places
She dances by herself on evenings in the balcony
While I look outside

She is my loudest scream
But also my struggle against writing
I adore her for all that she is
A lover, an admirer and a bully

For some, she is no friend at all
And for some
She is just about everything