With all my insecurities
Faults and failures
How could anyone love me?

With all my past mistakes
***** deeds and regrets
Why would someone care for me?

With all my angry shouts
Suspicions and paranoias
What is there to love about me?

With all these scars
Curves and stretch marks
Who could possibly want me?

With all these little dark thoughts
Depressive words and suicidal stanzas
Where is that one to love me?



*And finally set me free?

Dreamers nurture belief
In whatever they put forth
And keep their eyes open
To see the peak they have to reach
Dreamers live the true life
The life we must do
And it doesn't matter
Whether we are rich or poor
For dreams don't come through gold
Blessed is the person who has dreams
Though he doesn't have a blazer in winter
And he is not blessed
Who has a blazer not the dream

I wrote about you, day and night
You are my moon, you are my sun
I wished for the day when we would finally unite
Like the stars in the galaxy, shining bright
I was dreading the fact that the day might never come
When you wrap me in your arms and tell me it's fine
When you utter those words and protect me for life
My dread was increasing, my hopes were decreasing
I slowly shattered into a deep despair
Losing all senses of a fulfilled life and hope
I thought that the fantasies and dreams in my head are unrealistic and are merely an illusion
But then there you were, my protector, my hero
You grabbed me right at the end of the cliff and held me tight
You reassured and brought my soul back to life
You were my protector, and I was yours
We are now, now and forever, inseparable
For we suffered too long in the absence of one another

You call me stingy
And yes I am
And stronger now than when my heart was weak and flimsy and girlish
And you took my love
And tossed it aside
And now you say again wait wait wait
Let us try
And sure why not? It's just our hearts
On the line
Mine has cracked open and I can see inside. Ouch and wow and yay!!!
So do not wonder why it is that I stand still and scratch my head
While my heart beats away all the beats it has left
And then my head, wondering
At your ways, your odd ways
While inside I quake and hope and yes fear but even still I want to...why?
It is a woman's heart now inside me
A woman's head
It is still the thoughts and the hope of love and opening and touching
Presents and smiling and laughing and sharing and trusting
That we are kindred spirits
And we know how amazing it could be, we can feel it
That maybe this time is our time
It is the stuff of my dreams
Our coming together
But I am not a yo yo or your toy
And you are not mine
And yes I get mad
But I don't bother trying to get even
I'd rather be trusted and respected than loved or hated
We both have ****** it all up
I own it. Do you?
And I am sorry
Missed the cues
Misunderstood
Me not more than you
Think about that
It was not only me who erred
That is where we seemed to fall
Both of us blaming me and that is not fair but neither is life
And I don't like the word blame anyway

But my love for who you are is true
No matter what
And I still want to kiss you
And hug you
And things
I'm just here you know?
And you are there
Is there a bridge?

That word
Alone
Can mean anything anywhere to anyone
It is possible to feel alone among people if that is how you feel inside
When you can't connect with them
But I'm talking physically alone
A state of being that is not really natural for us social animals but so prevalent today
Alone means not with anyone else
Just me myself and I am alone a lot
And I won't lie sometimes alone means
Lonely
And it hurts and it aches
So til it changes which it may not really ever do, because I am fussy about that
I make friends with myself
I switch it around in my head to
Solitude
Peace
Acceptance
It gives me time to do all my DIY projects
My inner work. Work work work
And being my own friend, I fit some fun in too
So then when I'm not alone
When I get to be with anyone else
Even if it's just the mailman saying
Howdy
As he drives off leaving my mail
I can appreciate his company
For what it is
And I can see and recognize things
In others
That I already work on in myself
And I can offer comfort and company
And feel less alone
In my heart
If not my body
Alone is a choice and so is solitude
It doesn't have to feel lonely
But either way that's not where we grow
It takes other people
To have have fun to live to love to laugh to hurt to cry to anything
It's where we heal
If we can
So we can be unalone together