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May 2016 · 540
goodnight and goodbye
aeoxi May 2016
my viscous brain is leaking out
i hear the thump of my heart
accelerate and then fade
i am tired, far to tired to stay awake
goodnight and goodbye
May 2016 · 385
shell
aeoxi May 2016
unfortunately, loneliness seems to be my lot in life.
I am but a shell of the person I once was
May 2016 · 421
someone
aeoxi May 2016
Someone stole my mind
They crept into my head
They took control of my body and live the life I led
When they look into the mirror it is I who stares back    
But my true defining features are something that they lack.

Someone's in my body trying to steal my mind
no matter where I go they always creep behind
They look apon me sickly        
My dreams twisted in a haze  
This insanity berates me
Why won't they go away
Feb 2016 · 237
Untitled
aeoxi Feb 2016
forget! forget!
forget we're all dead
cover your ears! ears!
so you cant hear me scream of my fears
ive had really bad writers block and this isn't very good
Jan 2016 · 279
home
aeoxi Jan 2016
I'd travel the world
just to come home to you
hey look i made a poem thats kinda positive for once <3
Jan 2016 · 290
complexities
aeoxi Jan 2016
I'm happier when you're gone,
so why do I invite you back?
Jan 2016 · 252
is there any worth?
aeoxi Jan 2016
they say poetry is to display your emotion
but i have nothing to express
aeoxi Jan 2016
I'm so scared when I'm alone
why cant you see that i cant cope
Jan 2016 · 284
.
aeoxi Jan 2016
.
I had thought you were different
but i guess I've been wrong before
sorry this poems really bad
Jan 2016 · 258
tired
aeoxi Jan 2016
im tired of living in the name of others
if i cannot live for myself then i dont want to live at all
Jan 2016 · 876
stay with me
aeoxi Jan 2016
I'm terrified of sleeping alone
so please i beg you dont go
Jan 2016 · 290
what's wrong with me
aeoxi Jan 2016
In truth what's wrong with me is that
I want to be loved
I selfishly crave to be adored by someone above everyone else
I want to know what its like to be important to someone
I want someone to write poetry for me or to think of me at random times when im not there or just to do something small to show me they care
All ive ever wanted was someone who genuinely cared I dont want to be a friend for when its convenient or just for a laugh in school
It took me a long time to realise it but even the most cynical nihilistic people wish to be loved
Jan 2016 · 279
fraction of a void
aeoxi Jan 2016
you were never supposed to last
but you're absence leaves me feeling
an emptiness I've never known.
goodbye
Jan 2016 · 273
history repeats itself
aeoxi Jan 2016
like those who came before you
i tried to give you all i had and more
i had lived to make you happy
and still like the others you walked out the door
friends, lovers it doest matter in the end they all leave
Jan 2016 · 284
i am sorry
aeoxi Jan 2016
despite all you have done for me
i am terribly unhappy
and for that i am sorry
Dec 2015 · 490
stars
aeoxi Dec 2015
I am a star in the simple sense
that from afar I look alive and bright,
so I beg you not to come closer
I don't want you to know im dead inside
Dec 2015 · 293
Untitled
aeoxi Dec 2015
they rustle their books and school bags
a desperate plea to teachers to let them be free
free from this prison
where mistakes and judgement shackle you
a ****** poem i wrote in maths class
Dec 2015 · 249
i lived for them
aeoxi Dec 2015
Those kind words you so rarely gave me
could keep me warmer in winter
than any blanket could
Dec 2015 · 295
let go
aeoxi Dec 2015
Turn over a new leaf they say,
I laugh because they act as if change is easy,
as if leaving you is simple because you hurt me
they call me a fool for staying
but they do not understand I cannot let go
Dec 2015 · 310
questions
aeoxi Dec 2015
I look into the mirror and ask
"Am I truly happy?"
and my empty reflection replies
" no, perhaps you never were"
aeoxi Dec 2015
feet move and in a moment she's gone
my breath leaves me and I am nauseous,
I know there is company more desirable than mine
but still this loneliness breaks my senses
and then when you return you have the audacity to ask me why I seem upset

perhaps its childish for me to be mad
but I never did like the idea of growing up
Dec 2015 · 351
F.O.T.D
aeoxi Dec 2015
Fantasies of death were my introduction,
To the lust for self destruction
In the darkness I am lost in      
I will hold my saviour hostage
Dec 2015 · 539
numb and absent
aeoxi Dec 2015
I am empty
I find as time goes on
it is as if my emotions were tied to me by a thread that has been cut and now I hold these feelings in my hand so familiar and yet foreign at the same time,
I know I should feel but I cannot
and I have found there is nothing more terrifying
Dec 2015 · 3.5k
the past is the past
aeoxi Dec 2015
to you I am but a memory,
waiting to be forgotten
Dec 2015 · 226
maybe
aeoxi Dec 2015
I wish to sleep
and cease to breathe,
and then maybe I'll be free
Dec 2015 · 219
all in due time
aeoxi Dec 2015
I know that you will leave
all in due time
but perhaps for now
we can pretend we're alright
Dec 2015 · 261
8
aeoxi Dec 2015
8
all is fair in love and war
but you went too far
and you pulled me apart
Dec 2015 · 218
falling apart
aeoxi Dec 2015
my world is crumbling around me
and all I can do is wait till its done
so I can pick up the pieces again
Dec 2015 · 207
Untitled
aeoxi Dec 2015
my dying breath will be your sigh of relief
Dec 2015 · 490
my enigma
aeoxi Dec 2015
I sit in my void
and I search for the code,
the key to this enigma,
because secrecy is key
when you love unrequited,
so I will write about you,
for you
but first I must find
the unsolvable code
of our relationship
Dec 2015 · 292
muses
aeoxi Dec 2015
I envy my muse
for it must be nice
to be loved so much
that one would wish
to declare it to the world
Dec 2015 · 694
catching
aeoxi Dec 2015
I'm always catching up
notes in school
fashion trends of the cool
I feel like im always behind
but by the time I catch up
it will surely be time to die
Dec 2015 · 357
the waves of departure
aeoxi Dec 2015
To my lover who hails from the land that rules the waves,
Though I may never see you
I pray you will sail to me even if im in my grave

We are separated by sea and sand,
But I long for a day I can feel your touch,
Because life without you i've decided is very bland,
But living without seeing you is extremely rough
Dec 2015 · 218
and this gives life to thee
aeoxi Dec 2015
if my love could give life,
then you would be immortal
Dec 2015 · 215
on the hour
aeoxi Dec 2015
As church bells ring
and all are dressed in black
our final moments pass
how can we go back?
i dont really know how i feel about this one
Dec 2015 · 217
silent slumber
aeoxi Dec 2015
My death shall bring no joy nor despair
for I am a wisp in the wind
Dec 2015 · 371
peace through isolation
aeoxi Dec 2015
The time has come like I knew it would
You have locked me out from your heart
But if gives you serenity I dont mind
It is destined for us to be apart
Nov 2015 · 350
there is no title
aeoxi Nov 2015
without you I am stagnant,
trapped in a monochrome world
and what is an artist without their muse but a book without words
Nov 2015 · 430
Oblivion Bound
aeoxi Nov 2015
Hold me in your arms
Let me feel again
Fill the void in my body
I wanna feel like I did back then

I am lost not to be found  
An ethereal being in the wind
We were oblivion bound
Lets go back before we sinned
Nov 2015 · 233
Desire
aeoxi Nov 2015
Etch into my skin the marks of your desire
Burn me in your light
I want to know what love is like
Nov 2015 · 314
My goddess
aeoxi Nov 2015
When I say she is beauty incarnate
It is not an exaggeration.  
She could draw the breath of any mortal man or woman,
Her skin like silk, and eyes like
The sea.  
Though her eyes seemed icy,  
They burned with a passion
Stronger than the gods.                      
                                        
Perhaps she was a goddess herself.
If aphrodite was to walk this earth,  
It would be in this body.  
one look from her and all my senses
Ignite and I burn,
She is both the calm before the storm,
And the storm itself.
I love both sides as one
Nov 2015 · 260
Regrets
aeoxi Nov 2015
And I regret not telling you
how I had adored the ground you walked on
How I lived to see your happiness

And I regret letting you go
For it was a mistake
to me your worth was more than gold
I want you to know
My heart was yours to take
Nov 2015 · 3.2k
nonbinary
aeoxi Nov 2015
I often find my heart lies with the lads
And I find I related more than my body should
And other days I find I align with what my mother would be proud of

The confusion sickens me    
I feel like a freak
A shapeshifter in a circus
One who crowds gather to gawk at
It feels like they stare and mock my absurdity
It rips me apart to feel so different

And I have been told that it is for attention
But please know that no one would wish this confusion on themselves only to be looked at with disdain
I am me and that is simple and plain
an old poem of mine

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