My fingers
Interlocking with yours.
For the last time,
You'll never know you won't see me again.
Ever.
I'll be gone.
F O R E V E R.

the loneliness glides over my skin
burrows deeps
and settles into my bones
no matter what I do
it never leaves
I could talk all day to everybody
I could have a million friends
but I would still feel the same
lonely
soul chilling loneliness
never ceasing

my hands graze the keyboard
words swirl like a whirlwind in my mind
stuck in a cage
held captive
the words can't escape
my hands graze the keyboard
then shut the laptop off
why?
my efforts are fruitless
with the writers block
holding my down

will you still love me
if I don't smile today?
if my tears fall like raindrops
and my world tears at the seams?
if my voice breaks when I talk
and I seek the comfort of dreams?

will you still love me
if I don't cheer up today?
if I sit rigid in silence
and spend the whole day in bed?
if I find solace in cigarettes
and don't keep myself fed?

will you still love me
if I don't laugh today?
if I keep my thoughts hidden
and don't say what I mean?
if I curl up in darkness
and stare at a screen?

will you still love me
if I don't calm down today?
if my patience wears thin
and snaps like a thread?
if my eyes no longer sparkle
and are absent instead?

will you still love me
if I don't smile today?

When I used to feel like this
The words kept me safe
I'm falling into the abyss,
but without my pen's embrace

The scars that you see
They were all made by me
And my tears have turned red
With the blood that I’ve shed
People think I’m lost to the madness
But really I’m just cloaked in sadness
I could use a rope or i could use a knife
Looking back on my whole life
I see the pain and i see the hurt
I feel my heart about to burst
The blood will flow
Why can’t they see
That all my life
I’ve been afraid of
……..
Me

Suicide, suicide wishing i were dead
Suicide, suicide deep in my head
Suicide, suicide cutting on my wrists
Suicide, suicide I’m so done with this

2 days, 2 days let until i die
2 days, 2 days till the last tear i’ll cry.
2 days, 2 days until I am all gone
2 days, 2 days till the dark breaks the dawn

Suicide, suicide deep inside my head
Suicide, suicide now I’m almost dead
Suicide, suicide turn out the light
Suicide, suicide good by, good night