I ask myself why was we born
Is it a curse or lesson to be warned
Learned only to burn slowly the clock turns
Each second minute day is a step closer to the death sleigh
Soon to ride on the slopes derail
Of the tracks of life
Can't trust anyone or even self
Put my feelings on the shelf
Tryna keep a full bar of health
Keep my mind in stealth invested in brain wealth
Now in filthy rich but I got dirt surrounding me
Seems like society is fantasy turned reality
Stuck in a crystal ball summer winter spring or fall
Still can't get a **** call so many quick to ball
But many fall after a gall of someones downfall
Preying like a mantis from a **** of cannabis
Planted with a fist from death kissed
Wake up outta the dream I see the Sun as the moon
And moon as the sun or is it my souls done
Atmosphere ain't really here it's an illusion to keep us in fear
At the same time everything round us is sublime
Subjugated to work money grind slaves to time
If you understand the madterplan at hand
You wouldn't settle for a reprimand as I take on demands
Once again I ask why we living
Only to die with the sinful bodies we once lived in
Cracked open the shell it ain't hard to tell

The days go by
Yet the truth untold
They say I lie
But the mystery is yet to unfold
I saw the scene I saw it all
He killed that man over the fall
I narrated the whole scene to them
But they say, they needed a clue
A witness of the killing
Someone who was willing
To report the misery
I tried convincing him to believe
But no action taken till the eve
The authorities questioned me the next day
I told them I saw the ****** the other day
Man with a red hood and a track suit
Wearing dark glasses as if aiming for a loot
Within seconds, stabbed the guy and ran away
He didn't see me, and ran off the other way
You have to believe me!!
It's not one of those hallucination
Doctors say I am doing fine with less reaction
"And the officer went away, with a smile"
I knew he didn't believe cause am still under medication
Am a patient of schizophrenic but not a manic
I saw the culprit with my eyes
But all say that my statement were lies
Its been over a month, yet the killing is now a mystery
And soon the files would close, the case a history!

©sim

Stuck in the shell I can't shed
Help me, I'm locked in my head
No one can hear me scream, not even plead
Cutting my arms, watching them bleed
I can't take much more, someone end this pain
Ready to take a bullet to the brain
It too much to bare, just let it end
I beg and cry, but the message doesn't send
Louder and louder, but no one can hear me scream
Too much pain, too much, please is this just a dream
No one can help me now, I'm all alone
They can't hear my painful tone
Someone please, hear my cries
I yell and yell, but no one tries
I guess no one cares, no one is listening
My tears roll down glistening
I'll shut up and put on a smile
I'll walk a broken glass mile
Just know the smile I wear is to hide
I am eternally broken inside

These tears, drop for a reason
They don't have any desired season
Like the monsoon it sheds
It makes no sound as it's unheard
Wets the pillows and the sheets
Dreams are sweet but reality speaks
The emotions flow when tears roll
No one beside you, no one to call
You try to block your heart, creating a wall
Fail in vain, and tears begin to fall
You take courage to subside the issues
But when you look around, you see wet tissues
Who is there to understand the weeping heart?
Which day by day stumbles and falls apart
Everyone has their own ends and starts
This crying and weeping is everyones art
I wipe these tears off my face
As I now understand my unusual case...

©sim