abby Jul 24
you convinced me
to fall for you
and then you
watched me
hit the ground
abby Apr 6
How ironic it is
to want something so bad
that the moment you have a chance at it
it suddenly doesn’t mean half as much

It’s as if your purpose
stemmed from your yearning
and all you had to do was have it in reach
for everything to fall in place

So what do you do when
everything is still in pieces
The thing you were dreaming about
ends up different than your fantasies

You end up so focused on the finish line
that you don’t realize
that the path you neglected on the way
might make you happier

Maybe that’s the way we are
Constantly chasing after the next thing
to keep our hearts pumping double speed
Instead of finding the satisfaction
in stability

Or maybe this is me
getting exactly what I asked for
and realizing that I never wanted it
in the first place

Maybe I’m finally realizing
that I’m better off without you
That I can make myself happier
than you ever could
than you ever will
Maybe this is me learning to let go
abby Mar 24
I’ve been holding on
just to see if maybe
you’d pull me out
on the other side
But I’m not strong
and I can’t hold up
my limp body
I can feel my hands
slipping off the edge
I’m falling now
I can feel the pain as
I wait to hit the ground
as I watch the light
turn to darkness
You watch me
You let me
This is me giving up the fight
abby Mar 23
I know that it's hard
You can feel the anger and frustration rising up from your core
unsure of whether it will seep out of your eyes or your lungs
You're not sure how to react
Do you tear down everything in sight
or do you crawl into bed for the rest of week
letting yourself fall into darkness

The reality is, you'll do both
Some days you'll want to yell at the top of your lungs
You'll want to throw rocks at windows
rip all your pictures and throw them in the fire
And on other days you'll want to be left alone
in the warm comfort of your bed and your room
with a box of tissues and the saddest music you can find

I know you don't understand why it had to be you
Why you had to be the one to feel so broken
Out of all the people in the world, it had to be you
What did you ever do to deserve this
I know you'll feel tempted to blame yourself
for the hurt caused by someone else

It's not your fault
It's not your responsibility to control someone else's actions
The fact is, you can't change what happened
As much as you want to, you can't turn back time
What's done is done and now you're left in the rubble
I know that that's not fair
Nothing seems fair enough

Everything will hurt
Trying to get up in the morning with a fake smile on your face
Watching the people in your life so full of joy
Forcing yourself to try to do anything but pity yourself
It's not easy and you need to give yourself more credit
I know that when you say you're doing okay
you probably aren't, and that's okay

It won't be okay for a while
I wish I could tell you it will but that's not true
It will **** today, tomorrow and the next day after that
You'll have happy days, but you won't be happy right away
I'm sorry you'll have to deal with this longer than you have

I know you may not believe it or even want to hear this but
at some point, you'll wake up and it'll hurt a little less
At the end of the day, you are the person you're left with
You will learn how to let yourself feel better
because if you don't, who will
Just remember that you don't deserve to feel sad forever
You deserve the chance for happiness
You deserve it all
I'm rooting for us
abby Mar 20
You were the one thing that was supposed to last
You were by my side as my world was turning upside down
as everything I once knew came crumbling to the ground
when all I had left were the bittersweet memories of my past
You were the one constant I was left with

But I guess I must've been mistaken because
the only things you've left me with now are
the pictures I can't bring myself to delete
your sweatshirt I wear when it gets cold at night
the flashbacks I can't seem to get out of my head
the chest pains I feel when I wake up in the morning

You left without a warning and didn't bother to look back
In the heat of it all, you gave up on us, on me
before giving me the chance to know why
before giving me the chance to tell you that
if you had just tried, if you had just owned up to your mistake
I would still be in your arms tonight

They keep telling me that one day I'll move on, this will pass
But when I close my eyes and look into my future, all I see is you
The you that I planned to travel the world with
The you that wanted a big house and 2 kids
The you that showed me exactly how you would one day
get down on one knee and promise me the world

You were the one thing that was supposed to last
But now I'm not sure of anything anymore
Everything I knew turned out to be wrong
And I wish things would have been different
I wish you would have cared because  
You my love, you were supposed to last
I miss you.
abby Mar 19
How can you say you love yourself
but still go around
hurting others
abby Mar 18
We are the ones who are hard to understand
We'll be the last ones in the movie theatre
because the ending scene made us cry
We'll stop to smell the roses
because they deserve to be appreciated
We are the ones who will take the time
to get to know what keeps you up at night
We are the ones who will imagine
an entire future of adventures
with the people who show us love

We are the ones who will love you more
than we love ourselves sometimes
We will give you our strongest parts
in hopes that we can make things better
We desire to see you become the best you
to make sure that you always feel our love
We crave affection and appreciation
We give a piece of ourselves away every day
sometimes to people who don't deserve it
Our love is easy to take advantage of
and sometimes we don't get back
the love that we give away

When we hurt, we crumble and fall apart
We constantly have to put ourselves back together
We are more fragile than we like to give off
We carry our emotions on our sleeves
Our flaws have the ability to consume us
We aren't afraid to give you the world
but we are afraid to feel unloved
We want you to see what we see
We want you to understand where we're coming from

We are good people with good intentions
We are stronger than we look like
Not everyone can feel the way we feel
We feel too much, too often
We are not hard to love
We are something not everyone knows how to love
But you need to remember that
your worth does not change just because
no one is there to appreciate you, to remind you

You are not any less lovable
You are the most lovable person in the world
You are a light that the world needs
Your kindness is not your weakness
You do not need to change for anyone's acceptance
You do not need to stop giving love
just because you don't get any back
Your heart is the best thing about you

And one day when you least expect it
someone will notice you from across the room
and know exactly how to love you
They will think all of these things are beautiful
They will deserve the love you can give
They will fill the empty space in your heart
But for now, don't stop feeling
We are the ones who feel everything so deeply
We are the ones who can't give up because
We are the ones who will teach the world
how to love
We are exactly who we are supposed to be
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