I say the wrong things and hurt people
because people have hurt me all my life.
They never said ''hey I am sorry for the pain
I caused you.''
I think everyone is lying to me..

I wish I wasn't like that.
I wish I had jumped off that cliff.
Then the demons would disappear
*And the darkness would appear

I miss him and I shouldn't say ******* having lost someone I love
I miss him and I should stop thinking how ****** up the world is
I miss him and hiding things is terrible
I miss you and I wish you were here
I wish I could have said goodbye

Summer weekends
Lifetime struggles
Just three friends
Sharing their troubles

Sure, we drank
Sure, we smoked
Spilled out feelings
And tears were provoked

But this was us venting
And it oddly felt good
We trusted each other
And we all understood

How can you medicate me
                     if you barely know me?

So we close our eyes
and tell ourselves
that help will come
tomorrow.
But tomorrow's hope
quickly turns to despair
and then despair fades into nighttime
and then tomorrow is over
and help never came.
So we close our eyes
and tell ourselves
that help will come
tomorrow.

Sleepless nights
Sleepless nights
Can you come over girl
I need some inspiration
Restless thoughts
Restless thoughts
The voices in my head won't stop
This is not who I am
I'm trapped
I'm trapped
In my own mind
Exhausting days
Turn to sleepless nights

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