It's easier for me
to capture the wind
in my palm than
to hear a kind word
from you--not even
in a century!

.....but the mind
    can be truly blind
    with too much reason
    meaning it fails to find

She kept her freak hidden
Well out of sight
In the back of her closet
And only let it out at night
To crawl up on her bed
And climb into her head
Then it would
See through her eyes

I knew you’d never cross my way,
yet hope deceived my heart each day.
My heart holds only your memories true,
my eyes just illusions, still painted of you,
a ghost of love that chose to stay.

It is cloudy outside
As if the rain
Stopped time
And the droplets marked the slow seconds

There's a calm hush
As if the rain
Has silenced the streets
And the droplets disturb just the leaves

The sun is asleep it seems
But once the rain stops
It will all be back to blue skies
And it will become clear outside

The sun sets on each day
And orange fire starts the next
And yet it seems like I am stuck
Continually vexed

Time marches on
I am left behind
Footprints in the snow
I am left to find

"Just a few days"
And how am I to say
That is months to me
And my nerves fray

Until you stand upon the threshold
And your hands caress my face
I will continue to outrun time
In this never ending race

I said,
if I go back,
I lose my progress.
If I don’t,
I lose nothing.

But I went back.
And now I have to ask myself—
maybe I’m learning
to stand my ground,
but I’m losing friends.
People are walking away.

I’m confused as hell.

You’ll be so hurt
when you find out
what I’m doing.

And I’m not even thinking about him.
He’ll be hurt too—
but somehow,
your pain
hurts me more.

Another day afternoon
Long shadows will be creeping soon
We are all shadows beneath the moon

Lonely light fills the sky
Darkness hangs in the bye and bye
Stars shine like little eyes

Through the shadows for all to see
What is darkness, what is me
Save the daylight to be free
3/06/22