She kept her freak hidden
Well out of sight
In the back of her closet
And only let it out at night
To crawl up on her bed
And climb into her head
Then it would
See through her eyes

I knew you’d never cross my way,
yet hope deceived my heart each day.
My heart holds only your memories true,
my eyes just illusions, still painted of you,
a ghost of love that chose to stay.

It is cloudy outside
As if the rain
Stopped time
And the droplets marked the slow seconds

There's a calm hush
As if the rain
Has silenced the streets
And the droplets disturb just the leaves

The sun is asleep it seems
But once the rain stops
It will all be back to blue skies
And it will become clear outside

The sun sets on each day
And orange fire starts the next
And yet it seems like I am stuck
Continually vexed

Time marches on
I am left behind
Footprints in the snow
I am left to find

"Just a few days"
And how am I to say
That is months to me
And my nerves fray

Until you stand upon the threshold
And your hands caress my face
I will continue to outrun time
In this never ending race

I said,
if I go back,
I lose my progress.
If I don’t,
I lose nothing.

But I went back.
And now I have to ask myself—
maybe I’m learning
to stand my ground,
but I’m losing friends.
People are walking away.

I’m confused as hell.

You’ll be so hurt
when you find out
what I’m doing.

And I’m not even thinking about him.
He’ll be hurt too—
but somehow,
your pain
hurts me more.

Another day afternoon
Long shadows will be creeping soon
We are all shadows beneath the moon

Lonely light fills the sky
Darkness hangs in the bye and bye
Stars shine like little eyes

Through the shadows for all to see
What is darkness, what is me
Save the daylight to be free
3/06/22

So many times
I fell behind  
And my fears
Got the best of me.  

Caught by surprise              
In your looking-glass
Eyes
I locked into                          
Blew my mind--                    
I was not of your kind.  

But I still stayed                             By your side                        
There to guide  
My steps everyday                            
In every way;  
Trapped inside the
Obligation to stay.  

I thought you were
My friend;    
I had to pretend
To fool myself into
Believing in you.  

Caught in your lies,               
Hid behind your      
Disguise  
That you built up                    
Through the night--      
Nocturnal sight.  

You destroy             
Those you cannot
Pay;         
But those you've
Betrayed  
Now have better
sight,  
Brighter light,  
Slowly building up
The  
Strength to fight.  

And of all the
promises       
That you break,  
You justify by the
Laws               
Of give and take.  

These political and
Social              
Fault lines in the
Minds                
Of many, undermine  
Highlights--now the  
Cultural and structural  
Twilight--

The ancient                             
Disconnect between                    
The power elite  
And the people on the
Level of the street--     

Leading to higher
Levels
Of political and              
Social Chameleonic         Descent;  
Left wondering                  
Where our       
Idealistic & democratic               Societies went.          

So, as we watch  
Many of the global
Power elite  
Play their games
Of hide & seek                          
Behind           
The weight of policy--
That higher degree of                      Moral, political                    
And social leprosy--

You'll look for us,                     
But we'll be gone.