I fall again, I hit the ground
My world's been twisted upside-down
The peaks of joy, and then a crash
Emotions strong, decisions rash
But one more fall won't keep me down
The rising water won't make me drown
I'll just kick harder, gasp for air
For I know hope is always there
And we got back up, in the end
I knew we would, love won again
I'm only stronger from the pain
I've made a rainbow from the rain
I won't give up, I'll just grow more
Beat every battle that's in store

my friends latch themselves to me
and love me

i take my bad habits
and cut them off
as if with a knife

they tried to change me
but i was forged of stone

they tried to help me
but now they can't
i've made myself lonely

Twists and turns, riddles and layers
Are you a chessmaster or just a player?
How much do you know, do you really know at all?
Can you trust anyone to catch you when you fall?

...Yes.
In the end, behind every tangle
Behind pain and memories and words that mangle
One mantra of mine I've often said while I've fought
Turns out to be truer than I originally thought...

I LIKE TO SAY YOUR NAME

I like to say
your name

when you're
not here

turn you
into sound

conjure you out of
thin air

so that you appear
before me

dressed in sound
only

memory sketching in
the rest of you

as if sound
was just an outline

and love
colours you in

adding the voice last
so I can hear you say.

"Hello you..!"
and there you are

as present
as present

can be.

I like to say
your name

when you're
not there.

Forces beyond any walls ignite
Slowly we're coming back to light
The full story revealed
The first person healed
A secret no longer quite as concealed
A heart shattered, down to dust
A lost friendship, so much lost trust
But we will rebuild
Heal those who were killed
And certain truths will be fulfilled
Draw on strengths from one above
Joy, Faith, Hope, Love
In the darkest of hours
You can't stop these powers
Earth mixed with ashes is good soil for flowers
Tear away the distrust and all of the doubt
A new revolution shall be brought about
For I'll never give in
This new era begins

Love always wins

I hunger for fame
As most do
I want to share my voice
And make the world a better place
But how can I share a genuine thought
If fame is born of
  Clickbait and  emotional charge
  "debates" used to sland e r
ha tef ul  words thrown a ro u nd to
      g rab people's ey es and h e a r t s
   as gu lli ble as they a re
        used to t e a r    a p a  r   t
                  a  n   d         t   a k   e     the  r  u  b  b  l  e
             to bui  ld a  name
           and a legacy