In the night I hear your footsteps.
I miss you -- read your text
That night
Even though we got issues.
I wish I was there with you.
Rather yell and scream all night.
At least when we fight.
You are in plain sight.
I know it isn't right
Neither is you
Being out of my life.
A toxic love, killing us slow --
I know right.
From wrong.
But it feels so right.
 The love of my life.
Been waiting my whole life.
Pieces of a broken heart
Put back together so right.

i thought the braces would have stopped those people from talking
i thought starving myself would have made me feel good
i thought ripping open my veins would take away all of the pain
i thought boyfriends were supposed to compliment you
i thought my parents would be proud of me

maybe one day when my hair falls perfectly and my thighs don't touch
i won't think as much

I wrote your name out with the leaves
but the wind blew it around
I carved your name in the bark of a tree
but the lightning struck it down
I drew your name in the sand
but the waves washed it away
So I carved your name into my skin
and forever will it stay.
Everywhere else forgot your name
the bark, the sand, the leaves
I needed you out of my head
but you're still stuck under my sleeve.
k.l.s.

Stick me together with plasticine
Fill in the cracks of my broken dreams
Stitch my skin tighter and sow my heart shut
Let my hair loose and my nails uncut
Glue my eyes open and stretch out my frown
Dress up my fear in an ebony gown
Sketch in my strings and take hold of the thread
Wrap me in cling film, then leave me for dead.

I see you for what you are,
that's why I love you so much more.
Now is not before,
fooled me once,
I've been warned.
Lovers lost
lovers scorn.
Sent I felt your touch
my hearts been warmed.
Love your Pain more
than the thought of alone.

I see you looking at me, like you know me, but you don't.
I owe you nothing, yet stills you will still take, like my attention. Which you, don't deserve. I am human just like you, to be left alone, instead you direct your insecurities at me. Pointing out differences, labeled flaws by society, using fear, its not fair. But we are here, you are as guilty as me.

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If I may not be wrong
even it is true
that everything is not for me at all
but when sometimes Camellia called me
I felt all loves were for me
and I thought
me for love
love for mine
and it grew my dream

If I may not be wrong
even it is true
that every Autumn will not be
played with my wish
when truly I felt that the Rose never withered
but it grew gray
and my dreams went away

If I may not be wrong
even it is true
that every hope will not be
staying tuned forever
In my springtime when kite flew in the blue sky
and it felt me as the bird's feather
the sky turned colored
it grew in my dream again

If I may not be wrong
even it is true
that every love is a real love
and when you told me that
you will be with me forever
the red Roses bloomed everywhere
it grew in my dream again
but when you went away
I felt that I was standing alone on the shore
my dreams flew away

If I may not be wrong
but again, when I felt the mild breeze blowing
two birds were singing together
and loving each other
the Spring sprung,
again I heard your voice on the shore
and you told me,
you would not be alive without leaving mine
and again, love grew in my dream

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@Musfiq us shaleheen