I gave you everything
even the things that I didn't have

and now you're telling me
*I was not enough?

5:05pm
the sky is confused
the clouds are a blend
of orange and red
yellow and violets
what a moody creation


8:17pm
the sky can no longer hold it, i guess
lightning strikes everywhere
and thunder trembles here and there
the sky is crying


12:38mn*
the sky is calm
but it looks heavy
like the calm after a tantrum
and there are no stars
the sky is sad

I will not fear the future

I will not fear what the future holds for me

Because I serve the God of the future

And He is in control

Whether it is pain, regret or loss

I will not fear

Because I serve the God who is in control

To those in despair

And ready to pull the trigger on life

I beg of you don't

If you face abuse, fear, guilt, regret or just straight up pain

Depression

Anger

Don't pull the trigger

Don't pull it

Let go of the wheel

Let go of control

Let God control your life

Don't try to drive it

You will crash and burn and the last thing we need

Is another loved one put a pull in their brain

And leave their family behind

Give your life to the God who is in control

I've read a lot of words about
people who make
flowers grow in the deepest
parts of others. But you,
you lit a fire in me and now
I am burning.
Instead of petals at my feet,
there are flames in my wake.
And every touch is another hot
coal upon my skin and
I have never seen more
beautiful scars.

- R.H.