When I think of you
                                                             ­                    I think of teacups;
for when my mind is blank                
                              
                                 ­  the thoughts of you manage to

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­                                                                 ­             inside my head.

How can you look into my eyes and tell me you care
when your gaze is burning holes in my brain?
You held me close and ran your fingers, searching for delicacy;
I thought it was because you wanted to protect me,
you knew it as a way to control me.

When you locked your hands in mine,
you said you promised you'd never leave;
I didn't know you meant it figuratively;
please, stop haunting me.

You spoke sweet nothings,
made me smile, made me happy,
but I only soon found that they were just that:
sweet, bitter, sugar-coated
empty words of nothing.

How can you hold my hand
and dig your nails so deep
into the creases of my fingers
and invade my blood-stream

only to tell me to forget you.

(NJ2014) © All Rights Reserved.

Are you out there?
Are you listening?
Can you hear me?
Cause I need to see
That's there's someone
Who will answer me
And that the world is in your hands
Oh God please help me
Don't just diminish things
I can't see clearly
Or how I used to see
You're fading faster
From my memory
Oh God please take me in your hands
I need to know that you're out there
I need to know that you still care
I need to know there's a home up there
And that it's not a hopeless dream
Can you hear me?
Are you listening?
Because he's in my head
And it hurts me
God I know you
Won't desert me
So I'm reaching out my hand

I once thought that I do not need this life
I could die today
I could die tomorrow
And everyone will be alright

I once thought that I could run away
I could run to Boston
I could run to Rome
Because no one cared whether or not I stayed

I once thought that he could not break my heart
He could sleep with her
He could leave today
And not tear my world apart

I once thought that I could not feel pain
I could slit my wrist
I could try to fly
And no blood would escape my veins

I once thought that I was nothing
But I met him
And he makes me feel
Something

Hey, it's me again
I know you said you'd call back later
But I'm calling to let you know that I had a better day
I didn't cry
I didn't hide
I didn't stray away
I miss you so much it hurts
Please come home soon
I did the laundry and the dishes
I even finally dusted our room
Our bed feels empty without you
I keep a few pillows on your side
The nights feel colder and longer
But I can't wait to be your bride
I know you will be back soon
You called and said so
I replay your voicemail twelve times a day
But I still wish you didn't have to go
Your trip is taking too long
I like it better when I wake up in your arms
Time goes so slow when you're gone
Plus now I have to remember to set my own alarms
We are getting married next month
I cannot wait to start our lives
So hurry home so we can taste cakes
And teach each other how to dance right
Goodnight my handsome fiancé
I guess you're still pretty busy
But it's been a year and I think it is about time
For you to call me back or let me know that your plane landed fine

All my friends are breaking up

They held on too long to what they thought was love

Consumed in the loneliness and need for someone

So they held on too long to what they thought was love

Better days are ahead, do not return to them

Hold on, there will be a day when you know it’s love

Tell me why I have this pain in my chest
When you socialize with someone who once shared the same bed