I hate this ******* life today
Its all ******* insane
Why was I ever born at all
Life’s just one big migraine
Can't seem to get out of the dark
Can't seem to find my light
The joyous things life has to offer
No longer in my sight
I lay here crying all alone
And feeling undesired
So tired of this life i’ve lived
Wish it to be retired

Thank you sis for being there
Showing me how much you care
Always there to cheer me up
Telling me not to give up
Making sure that I'm all right
Encouraging me to write
Sending wisdom and kind words,
Pretty pictures, trees and birds
Never judging me at all
Making sure i do not fall
Thank you sis for being there
And for showing me you care

Rejected by a few more friends
Just thrown out like the trash
I'm falling and i see no end
Expecting a big crash
They used to all give me support
They used to to have my back
And now the facts they do contort
They stabbed me in the back
I am so sad and ******* mad
Why can't they let me be
I didn't do anything bad
Yet they've abandoned me
Bad enough that i was ghosted
And left without my group
Now I'm left to be composted
While trying to recoup
They used to like my company
They used to sing my praise
Now most of them won't talk to me
Alone in my malaise
I keep losing so many friend
Forgotten, lost in time
I really wish this **** would end
But ghosted one more time.

Falling deeper through the abyss
Just cannot face the truth of this
I'm losing faith and any hope
And I don't know just how to cope
You told me that it all was fine
Yet haven't seen you in some time
You told me that we were still friends
But seems like it's come to an end
Your photo used to make me smile
But haven't seen you for a while
Our little chats would make my day
Though now I cry my days away
Can't reconcile what’s in my head
All of the things you did and said
I thought you were my special friend
A friend I'd have until the end
I did not care about your past
Just wanted our friendship to last
But somehow it all went wrong
And now i fear our friendship gone
I miss those times so very much
And how I'd love to stay in touch
I highly doubt it’s in the cards
Losing your friendship’s very hard
Still falling deeper through the void
So much pain i can't avoid
I think all day and wonder why
The friendship lost still makes me cry

My Head hurts, my throat is sore
And i can't take it anymore
All the darkness and the pain
Stirring up inside my brain
So confused and very low
Lost within the undertow

I'm Someone, no one
Somebody and nobody
I am SomeOneElse

Oh how i long to be desired
A feeling which we all require
Wish i could have that great physique
Makes women stop to take a peek
Or maybe have that *** appeal
Makes women give that lustful squeal
To be wanted in every way
And really be someone’s dream lay
To be somebody’s fantasy
Would leave me in such ecstasy
Instead i’m just an average guy
Just very nice and very shy
I do not have the perfect ***
Nothing anyone would applaud
I wish the women thought me hot
But in my heart i know I'm not
A *** symbol I'll never be
No one will have wet dreams of me
These feelings they are not required
But i still long to be desired.