Oh how i long to be desired
A feeling which we all require
Wish i could have that great physique
Makes women stop to take a peek
Or maybe have that *** appeal
Makes women give that lustful squeal
To be wanted in every way
And really be someone’s dream lay
To be somebody’s fantasy
Would leave me in such ecstasy
Instead i’m just an average guy
Just very nice and very shy
I do not have the perfect ***
Nothing anyone would applaud
I wish the women thought me hot
But in my heart i know I'm not
A *** symbol I'll never be
No one will have wet dreams of me
These feelings they are not required
But i still long to be desired.

My head is a mess
Cluttered with random ideas
Wanting to come out

Everyday that passes by
Without a word
Just makes me cry
Wonder where it all went wrong
I messed up big
A friendship gone?
A friendship lost, i sure hope not
Each passing day
Some comfort sought
Miss, i do the daily chats
And Days without
I feel so flat
Can't clear head, it's just a mess
Paranoia
I must confess
Nervously I try to wait
For the next chat
I fear too late
shouldn't think these thoughts of mine
Just let it be
And give it time
But each day that passes by
Without a word
Still makes me cry

I made a friend who helped me out
One day when i was blue
She made me laugh and made me smile
On days when i was  blue
She gave me hugs and soothing words
On days when I was blue
Her number she did give to me
For days when i when I was blue
The greatest friend I thought i had
For days when I was blue
We'd chat for hours with secrets shared
On days when I was blue
The time we shared and showed she cared
Some days when I was blue
Wrote me a poem said things were fine
One day when i was blue
The friendship meant so much to me
For days when i am blue
Now chats are rare, i fear her gone
These days when i am blue
I fear I lost my special friend
Most days now i am blue
I wish i could, mistakes undo
These days that i am blue
I miss my friend, will to the end
On days when i feel blue

Was it easy was it hard
For our friendship to discard
Did you have to was it needed
When our friendship you conceded
Did you smile or did you cry
Ghosting me with no goodbye
Did you laugh or did it hurt
When you left with no alert
Do You wonder do you care
Leaving me beyond repair