missing
is standing on the ground
while you fly
knowing you'll always slip from my fingers

longing
is reaching for your hands
in the dark
and finding nothing

yearning
is seeing your smile
on the corner of every street
but never hearing your laugh

take me back there please
im scared of that place but I also love it
its where I felt love for the first time
its where I hit my first mile stone
its where I dreamed
but its also where I felt pain
its also where I was betrayed
its where they left me
and it's where I lost myself.

Down this very hill,
By this very stream
Both of us, we had one dream
To sail the seas, to reach the sky
But we never knew,
That we'd say goodbye

Nevertheless, I finished our dream
I sailed the seas, I reached the sky
But still I feel the guilt everday
That I did not help her in her dismay
Sad but true, that's my story
But still I remember her in all her glory

I don't know if
I can do this
It feels too heavy

I know I can handle it
My past
Can attest for that

But I feel my hand slipping
And I need to hold on

What if I let go?
Will it be as
catastrophic as I think?

oh
love me
red autumn still
through
the
dawn and daffodils
through
the
first kiss of spring
through
every meadow
and
quiet brooks
thus
never let
the
autumn leaves
dare
to touch
the
lonely ground

in between
where I’ve been
and where I want to be
the skeleton of our love lies

Get a job,
a husband or wife.
Make yourself comfortable
in your own life.
So they tell me
or would have told me
if they were still alive.
But they are dying slowly
by the magic pills.
They are no longer there
to protect and care.
I no longer have devils
that whisper and scream.
They can do both
but now they are doing non.
And I can see myself having fun,
not caring or staring
into nothingness.
Yet it leaves me in mourning
to know they are about to die.
Maybe if I hold on a little longer
I won't be lonely and then find myself
a job, husband or wife.