You colored my walls in Red; I soon realized that meant blood.
Red so deep, Red so pure, I mistook that Red for love.
On those walls, words appear;
Desire, Hate, Attachment, Fear.
Meanings that remain unclear,
A mind so loud you cannot hear.
My sirens sound, my trauma speaks.
Remember how I felt so weak.
Remember tears, remember pain.
Remember storms and freezing rains.
Remember you.
Remember me.
Us alone, havoc wreaks.
Tears I cry, blood still bleeds.
Dripped in Red you colored me.

Why do you feel like I'm not worth your time
I stare out my window and watch the sun rise
You're living your life and that's okay
I just wonder if you know how much my heart aches
I wonder if you know it's hard to sleep some nights
Rushing thoughts of you just won't leave my mind
Memory of us laying side by side
My eyes start to burn I can't stop crying
My head was on your chest and you held me tight
I wonder if you ever think about that night.
I wonder if you miss me in your arms
I wonder if your goal was to cause me harm
I can never seem to find you, when you come you never stay
You throw away my love that's one thing I really hate
Putting out a fire fought hard once before
It's sad to say, I know, my love, you'll always ignore.

the moment a poet
falls in love with you

is the moment
you live

f o r e v e r

I've lost the words to convey what I feel.
I've gained the wisdom to see what is real.
I've lost the courage to believe I will heal.
I sing a song to calm my soul.
To forget for a moment all the pain I know.
And I feel myself slowly becoming cold.
So I sing that song to find some peace,
but this throb in my chest will not cease.
Until I am numb, and I'm almost there,
for this pain I endure,
I cannot bear.