time doesn't make sense its Saturday night and i rented video games but feel too melancholy to play

Formality is exhausting but can be rewarding
   No cars allowed on the street when I am passing
   Brief summarization of each step on this walk
   No that's what I call a toothache

picture me of dirt and
    relieve yourself and watch it and be pleased
    and return to the trampoline

why do i have to feel
  i'm probs in the ugliness
  living in green
  making my heart feel pokey
  feeling grizzly and god awful
  buhbut
  absolutely dismal +color fade

+commercials play in my head on loop forever

Death vibrating on the sunbeams
   look at me look at me
   ******* diminishing
   Chomp chomp chomp
   Number gets spin
   And my head comes on crashing

authentic ***** sneaks in
   notebooks hidden

Imagine me just howling
   That's how my heart feels
   But pulling me forward

I love when you share facts about the wild life of the Yard
Understanding the world
that is surrounding me
Distinct codes in things
Former-future references
It feels like it's gonna rain, the bedroom light makes me feel
Did you see me smoking *** in the court
Smoking love out my eyes
The large trees keep the wind in them
Top dancing waves being pulled
I am worried by how much i don't breathe or how soft I feel

feed on me
         i am

        at what point can i offer my body up for
        sacrifice

       watch me eat myself yeah yeah yeah
       i feel like dying whether or not anyone is around
       i wonder how much of myself I have eaten

How often is special
   This is a tumult
   Over me popping with daisies

Be not charged in dwellings
  Love is my church
And I need time to process
  Oh you know
There's beeps and laughter
  Much of what I feel is in the air

In amusement
Format ideas in a light headed voice
Cause I just feel vapid and spaced
Crucial zone peak self-doubt
A grassy fucken hill area
Wet and quiet and blue
When it comes down to it
Ya feel fickle’ n shorts
Crying like a water melon

do you feel the split

   between each of my teeth
   that i fill with sugar and get comfortable

how familiar are you with "trying really hard to do something?"

i want to give a love that’s oily

in all realms i am a fool

need softness
ineedalifetimeofsoftness
this new house buzzes
it’s more like a low tremble

bodies are fun but i don't want mine anymore

              iwannainhabityourlovelythoughts
              iwannaconsolidateandauctionoffmine

If those ghostly aspects kick in now at
     7am on the train feeling ******
     would I become someones anxieties

                  I DONT EVEN EXIST I AM 7am ON THE TRAIN

How do I even speak of love
    How do I even speak of longing
    Dome placed high above formless
      Space
    And I thought, "I give up"
    And I almost laid down on the pavement right there

i feel so
feeling love all by myself
they eliminated 100% of my vocabulary and replaced it all with "love"
i like heavy shoes - a romance novel
feeling refreshed not love